Two Birds with One Stone

Wala Lang

Sa Iyo, Kilala Mo Kung Sino Ka

Gusto ko lang magsulat, a message for no one really.

Mahal ko siya, alam ko mahal din niya ako.

Gusto ko lang magsulat, disappointments kung baga.

Pero, may mas mahal siyang iba.

Napag isip isip ko lang, na nakakagaan mag sulat.

Alam ko naman yun, niloloko ko lang ang sarili ko.

Maaaring di lang ako ang nakakabasa nito,

At ang totoo, kaya di nya ako kayang ipaglaban,

maaaring marami makaintindi sa nararamdaman ko.

dahil di niya ako ganun kamahal.

Ayaw kong isipin na failure ako,

Sana di na lang nya pinaramdam,

dahil alam ko na may mga naachieve na ako.

na may pagmamahal siya sa akin.

Pero aminado ako, failure ako sa madaming bagay.

Di sana ako nasasaktan ngayon, tahimik sana ako ngayon.

Naiingit ako sa madami kong kaibigan,

Gusto na kita kalimutan, palayain mo na sana ako.

dahil gusto nila ng ginagawa nila.

Sana makita ko na siya, ang lalaki ng panaginip ko.

Di na kasi ako sigurado sa gusto ko ngayon,

Maging masaya ka sana para sa akin,

di na gaya ng dati.

hilingin mo lahat ng mabuti para sa akin.

Yun na lang ang hihingin ko sayo, palayain mo na ako.

A Weird But Very Pleasant Dream.. Very Pleasant Indeed..

I just had a very pleasant dream, I even woke up smiling, and I didn't want to wake up. I wanted the dream to continue. I guess, it gave me hope, that everything will be alright. It was about a man, whom I think I was starting to like/love... Here's how it went:

I met him through a friend, he was tall and cute, in a "Marco Alcaraz" way kind of cute. He was studying to become a doctor, obviously younger than I am, but only 2 to 3 years. He also studied butterflies, he is facinated with them. He asked me out, we (my family and his friends) went to the beach. At first I didn't like him, I barely gave him attention, but then, his sweetness got to me. In the end, I missed him so much I kept hugging him, I know, I barely knew him, but the dream felt so long and real. I liked the way I felt when I hugged him, it was like his arms were protecting me from any harm. I fit perfectly into his arms, my head barely touch his shoulders. And he kissed me near my right brow, it was very innocent and true. Then, my alarm went off.

Very pleasant dream, I still can not stop myself from smiling.. (",)

A Stranger Made Me Smile

Last night, while waiting for the stoplight to turn green, I saw a boy, selling my favorite flower, the sampaguita. I hated the way the car smelled so I thought of buying from the boy. The flowers were overpriced, it cost me twice as much had I bought it in front of a church. But it was fine, I wanted to make the car smell better. I gave the 20 pesos to the kid, and he said with a smile, "Thank you Ma'am". Then he ran (more of galloped) to his grandmother and waved the 20 pesos with a huge smile on his face. Just when the light turned green, I glanced to where they were sitting, and I saw the boy, pointing at my car, as if telling his grandmother, it was I who bought the sampaguita. And, he was still smiling. It was how he acted that made me smile, it was actually his smile that made me smile. The child's smile was very innocent, it was worry-free. It was such a breath of fresh air.

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Thank You!

To all of those who read my previous post, and sent a private message to me, thank you very much! I really appreciate your warm thoughts. You all know who you are.. (",)