Am I Honestly Over Him?
I've only been in love once, and ever since he broke my heart, I’ve been overprotecting myself from getting hurt. ‘Twas that time I told myself that I could endure any physical pain but never the pains of a broken heart. I still live by that line to this very day.
The question is: am I honestly over him?
How do I answer this question? If being over him means that I could look straight into his eyes without melting inside, then maybe I am. If being over him means that I’ve had other relationships, then maybe I am. But then, maybe I am not.
Some people say that I was not in love, that it was just lust. That it happened during the time when my hormones were raging and I mistakenly mistook lust for love. Maybe they’re right.
Maybe I am not completely over him. Because deep inside, I know that I still have love left for him. How much? Still I do not know, but everyday I realize that the love that I have for him is just enough to say that I fell for him once in my life.
Have I moved on? Of course I have. Am I ready for a new relationship? I still cannot answer that. Will I jump into that “CLIFF” again? Maybe I will.
Here’s what I believe in, I believe that love when lost, was not love at all. That is not a maybe.