Bibitiw na ako..

Haay.. magtatago na ulit ako sa aking shell.. I'll be hiding my face again behind a happy mask.. Showing everyone that everything is fine.. That I'll be fine.. I know I am going to be fine..

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Mina, thanks for the encouraging words, but I think, this time I have to give up.. I think there are too many complications eh.. That's why I choose to give up this time.. Malay mo in the near future di ba.. Please don't mention names ah, he might be reading my blogs.. Please.. Thank you ulit! Luv yah sis!!!

(",)

Nababagalan Ako sa Kanya

Naiinip na ako. Baka nga hindi nya ako gusto. Mahirap ba akong abutin? Hindi naman di ba, nandyan lang naman ako lagi sa tabi nya. Baka kasi di sya lumilingon sa tabi tabi. Nakakalungkot isipin, gusto nya ako, kung kailan nagustuhan ko na din sya, ayaw na yata nya sa akin..

Baka nga.. It's not meant to be.. Like I said, I still believe in love, I still have faith in love. Love will find me again. Even if it takes a while..

Lahat ng bagay na nangyayari sakin, I try to relate it to a song, so here's my song for you... (Although, the pang-guy yung kanta.. so syempre sana may female version yung song..hihihi!)

--(",) (",) (",) (",) (",) (",) (",) (",)--

Let Me Love You

Mario

Mmmm ..... Mmmmm.... Yeah....Mmmmm....

Yeah, Yeah, Yeah Mmmm...Yeah....Mmmm.....

Yeah, Yeah

Baby I just don't get it

Do you enjoy being hurt?

I know you smelled the perfume,

The make-up on his shirt

You don't believe his stories

You know that they're all lies

Bad as you are,

You stick around

And I just don't know why

If I was ya man (baby you)

Never worry bout (what I do)

I'd be coming home (back to you)

Every night, doin' you right

You're the type of woman (deserves good thangs)

Fistful of diamonds (hand full of rings)

Baby you're a star (I just want to show you, you are)

[Chorus:]

You should let me love you

Let me be the one to

Give you everything you want and need

Baby good love and protection

Make me your selection

Show you the way love's supposed to be

Baby you should let me love you,

Love you, love you

[Verse 2:]

Listen

Your true beauty's description

Looks so good that it hurts

You're a dime plus ninety-nine

And it's a shame

Don't even know what you're worth

Everywhere you go they stop and stare

Cause you're bad and it shows

From your head to your toes,

Out of control

[Bridge:]

You deserve better girl (you know you deserve better)

We should be together girl (baby)

With me and you it's whatever girl, hey!

So can we make this thing ours?

--(",) (",) (",) (",) (",) (",) (",) (",)--

I Love This Song....

. . . . . (",) (",) (",) (",) (",) (",) (",) (",) . . . . .

Suntok sa Buwan

Session Road

Hindi mo ba alam
Damdamin ko'y pinagtakpan
Makasama ka'y suntok sa buwan

'Di mo nga alam
Mundo mo nga'y iyong tignan
Kung ganyan, walang pupuntahan

Hindi ko 'to gusto
Pero 'wag kang lalayo

Itanong mo sa akin
At tatanungin ko rin
Kung ika'y aamin
Lahat ay gagawin

'Di mo napapansin
Kailangan mo akong dinggin
'Di habang buhay ika'y aantayin

Ito'y aking hiling
At sana naman ay tanggapin
Ng puso ko'y 'di nabibitin

. . . . . (",) (",) (",) (",) (",) (",) (",) (",) . . . . .

*** I do love this song.. I sing this with conviction.. to the max!!! ***

HITCH!

Starring:Will Smith

Watched Hitch last night.. All I can say is, this is the best romantic - comedy movie I've seen ever! This is one movie I'd like to watch over and over..

To guys out there: you can learn so many things from this movie, from meeting women to lines that you might want to use with your girlfriend that will surely melt their hearts...

I give this movie a two-thumbs up, 5-stars, and a whole lot of applause!

Troubled Me...

Troubled Throat..
I am sick once again, feeling the fever sometimes, but what has been bothering me is my voice. My voice has been working against me for the past 2 weeks. I can't really speak continuous for 30 minutes because my voice starts to fade.. Well, my profession requires me to speak non - stop.. How am I going to do that?

Troubled Mind..
Too many decisions to make, just not sure if I have enough courage to stand up for my decisions... I have been receiving UNWANTED attention for quite sometime now from two persons whom I have ABSOLUTELY no interest for. I believe I've tried my best to show that I have no interest at all and can not offer anything more.. I really do not want to be bothered by them. What makes them think that I have the time of day for them when I am too busy with my own stuff... Why can't they leave me alone?

Troubled Heart..
I have confided with my PPG sistahs that I am falling for someone..(",) But again, I am hounded with dozens of hesitations.. Why can't I just dive in on dark waters?

Paasa?? Who me?? Confessions of a Female Commitment Phobe..

Paasa: someone who gives "false hopes"

A friend told me last Saturday that I was "paasa". Not really, I am basically friendly, and once I see that a person is worth my friendship, I really give my 100% friendship to that person, no malice. Most of the time, other people mistake this type of behavior as something like "I like the person" or if it happens that the person likes me, he might mistake it as hope for something more of a friendship.

Well, it's like this, I do not believe in courtship, I believe in getting to know the real person. It has been said many times that during the courtship phase, both the girl and the boy show only their good side. Well, for me, it doesn't work that way. I always want to see the real person, how he deals with conflicts, drama and other stuff that most people in a relationship deal with. So, during this "getting to know you" phase, the other person I am getting to know thinks that we are in a "relationship" or we might have a future together. It sucks, I know. Maybe I don't make it clear enough to show that I am trying to get to know him. Maybe I should exert more effort in stating it in "clear cut sentences" so as to avoid any confusion. I hate getting hurt and I also hate hurting other people.

It's true, I am afraid of commitment, terrified of settling with one person alone for the next few months, years or even a lifetime. Afraid to see his faults, and not be able to accept them. I know, I am not perfect. But that's just me.
I've been in a couple of relationships before, I did learn to accept them, faults and all, why did it fail? Because we were always in bad situations. I need not explain it here. HAHAHA! That's why I have been this way, too many bad relationships and combined with bad "role models" on love. Now, I am afraid to commit. Afraid to let go of my feelings, to allow any feeling that I know will lead to "falling in love". Totally terrified of getting hurt again and again. Afraid to risk... To be dependent on someone... Again, that's just me, and it really sucks! (",)

A Good Lesson on Love..

To the Almost Hopeless, Hopeless and Loveless..

This is an excerpt form Paulo Coelho's book: By the River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept..
"....But love is always new. Regardless of whether we love once, twice or a dozen times in our life, we always face a brand-new situation. Love can consign us to hell or paradise, but it always takes us somewhere. We simply have to accept it, because it is what nourishes our existence. If we reject it, we die of hunger, because we lack the courage to stretch out a hand and pluck the fruit from the branches of the tree of life. We have to take love where we find it, even if that mean hours, days, weeks of disappointment and sadness.
The moment we begin to seek love, love begins to seek us.
And save us....."

Beautiful words of hope.. This has given me a brand new outlook on love..

I am a Magnet of Committed Men

I do not know really what is with me, but men who are currently committed tend to fall for me. Why can't I be a magnet of single men? Why committed guys?