Fallin' in love.. Fallin' out of it...
Falling in love is such a wonderful experience. Being in love is so much better. Such an incomparable feeling. Such a happy feeling...That is, if you are not in a situation like mine...
After a few months of being in this relationship, I seem to be confused. Am I still in love with this man? Am I doing all this sacrifice /compromise for him because I am in love with him, or I am just trying to make it work just to prove to myself that I can make it work? I've become a cynic when it comes to relationships, I am surrounded with failed relationships that I really don't expect any relationship to last long.
I am really unhappy with my relationship with him. I just can't say it to his face. I am so afraid that by telling the truth, he'll be disappointed and unhappy. I still love him that way, I mean, I don't want him to feel unhappy. But right now, I really can't say that he makes me happy, even when we are together. All I want to do is cry. I think he knows why I am so unhappy, he just can't do anything about it.
What will make me happy? Ultimately happy? I do not know yet. But plain happines? All I know is that he can not give me what I NEED, and I know this NEED will make me happy.
If in case I am still inlove with him... I am sorry, I just want to fall out of love with him...
3 comments:
alam ko sa na ang mga nagdaang araw ay hindi naging ganun kaganda para sa atin.... kung hindi ka nagagalit o nagtatampo eh ndi tayo nagkakasundo.... sa ngayon, alam ko mahirap ang sitwasyon naten, lalo na sayo.... sorry po kung hindi na pala kita napapasaya.... na puro sakit ng lang pala naibibigay ko sayo.... kaya lage ko naman sayo tinatanong diba??? kung napapasaya pa kita.... ngayon, nasabi mo na ang nararamdaman mo.... tama ka, masakit para saken... kasi mahal na mahal kita... alam mo yan.... hindi ko alam gagawin ko pag wala ka saken.... pag magkasama tayo gusto ko lage kita makitang masaya... pero kahit panong gawin ko, iba pa din ang nakikita ko sayo.... alam mo kung gaano kita kamahal.... sobra sobra.... hindi ko alam kung tama ang intindi ko dito pero, mukhang gusto mo na nga ako iwanan, kalimutan.... sobrang saket nun saken pero ano nga ba magagawa ko diba??? cnabi ko naman na sayo, wala ako magagawa kung ayaw mo na.... pero kung tama nga ung intindi ko, tulad ng sabi ko sayo, gusto ko pagusapan naten.... sa lalong madaling panahon..... i cant w8 for a few weeks..... kung ok lang po sayo, makapagusap na tayo as soom as you read this..... sabihan mo lang po ako... basta, sana alam mo pa din kung gano kita kamahal.... mahal na mahal na mahal kita.......
ur baby',
mahal na mahal kita... :(
"he'll be disappointed and unhappy." - a perfect way to say it... :(
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