Wasted Vacation?!?

Was my one - month vacation really wasted?? This is my first vacation that I was not able to go anywhere. Not to Baguio, Not to Batangas, Not Even to Friggin' LAGUNA! I was terribly busy doing something that I totally forgot that I am supposed to go on vacation. Too bad. But at least I finished all my "Things To Do". Anyway, it's still April, I have May or at least the last weeks of June. I just hope rain won't fall early this year.

Losing Weight

Ok, I'm back on track. I'm really trying my best to lose all the weight I gained slacking off. I am not really after going down to a size zero. I just want to look good in any type of clothes I wear. I just want to fit in a medium again, even a large. I want to move a little faster and not get tired climbing the Fourth Floor of the West or the NorthWest Buildings of the school. I want to dance with a little more grace, the grace I lost when I gained all this weight. In short, I just want to feel the confidence I lost when I gained all of this weight. I've been going to the gym regularly for almost a month now, and so far, I am glad with the results. I pray that I'll be able to maintain the weight loss for a long time, even if I get married or get pregnant. (",)

Speaking of Losing Weight...

It's nearly 47 days, I haven't eaten any pork, beef or any chicken (at least not to my knowledge)! It has been my annual sacrifice during the Lenten Season. To let go of the food I love to eat. Since I am very fond of eating, so I believed that this will be a good sacrifice. I guess it has actually contributed to my weight loss. The other day, I was telling a friend, I really miss eating chicken. We were eating at KFC (I ordered the Green Salad, still no chicken!) and he kept on wagging his chicken in my face. I really miss eating chicken...

But really, it's a very small sacrifice, compared to Jesus' sacrifice. Tomorrow, on Easter Sunday, the day we Catholics commemorate the Lord's Rising, I'll be thankful, not only because I'll be able to eat chicken again, but because I am reminded that He has died and sacrificed Himself for my sins.

Just As Expected..

I've been following the Pinoy Big Brother Celebrity Edition over at Channel 2, being a fan of Bianca Gonzales way before she joined PBB. As expected, Keanna won, John was second place, Bianca was third and Zanjoe was fourth. I even voted for Keanna because I really liked her. Her depth is unbelievable. She's funny and witty. She's strong and yet compassionate. I've actually became one of her fans.

I must admit, I am guilty of judging people with the way people acted inside the house. But, these people knew what they were getting into. As public as the show was, they were being recorded 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, for 50 - something days. And public figures they are and some have became. And as public figures, they will be really subjected to people's opinion, or worse, really bad judgement. People campaigning for the Big 4, especially for Bianca and Zanjoe, reiterated that they should not judge these people. It can not be prevented. It can not be stopped. It will happen. And I believe that these judgements may affect Bianca's image, then that's the price she has to pay for being in that contest.

I am quite surprised with how the show has turned out. I am still shocked. I really admire Bianca before she entered the Big Brother house. I guess I still have to see if I will in the future.

HOT HOT SUMMER!

It's very unfortunate on this weather, I wouldn't be able to enjoy the sun and water (I still have a wedding to attend, so I really couldn't show up with sunburn all over!). What's more of a shame is the fact that I only have one month of vacation, and the wedding will be after my vacation! Oh well, I hope I can still enjoy the rest of the summer.

Speaking of summer, I really wish I could wear my new bathing suit (actually it's supposed to a 2 - piece suit, fortunately, I was able to buy the top only!) I'm really excited to wear this, as long as I don't have the flabs by the time I'll use it. I've been sweating it out in the gym, working out at least 2 hours, twice a week. Losing the weight I gained in the last 6 months is really a target for me this summer. Even if I do not have somewhere to use this top, at least I was able to lose the excess baggage I gained! It's a win-win situation, isn't it?

Gloomy Me..

I really am sad (again?!). It is only endorphins that has been keeping me going (produced by hours of working out in the gym).. FIrst, I was saddened by the fact that a handful of my students failed DATCOM013. Then, I need to pay tons of bills that I really could not enjoy the money I will receive for the months of April and May. And third, I had to let go of something and someone whom I really hold dear to my heart. My life has been falling into pieces this past month, I was merely setting it aside and was dealing with urgent but unimportant matters. Now, my hands have nothing to do, and so I am faced again with all the hoopla. I am in a rut. I need something or someone to hold on to. To share the burden. But I really can not talk to someone. I really can not talk to just a somebody. I need to be saved from my falling world.