Ano Na Naman Yan

Galit ka na naman. Hindi mo na naman hinaharap ang mga problema mo. Masama ang loob mo. Pero di mo sinasabi. Masaya ka pa ba sa buhay mo? May hinahanap ka ba? May gusto ka pa ba sa buhay mo? May inaasahan ka pa ba? O nagpapadala ka na lang sa agos ng buhay? Hinahayaan mo na lang ba na tangayin ka ng alon? O lalaban ka at lalangoy?

Bakit parang nakapako ang mga paa mo sa kinalalagyan mo? Bakit di mo pa iwan ang dapat mong iwan? Nakakadena ka ba? Ano ba ang pumipigil sa'yo? Ano pa ba ang hinihintay mo? Wala ka mapapala sa pag hihintay. Nag hihintay ka ba na magkatotoo ang pangarap mo? Kung yun ang hinihintay mo, imposible yun, dahil hindi ikaw ang may hawak ng pangarap na iyon. Mas maigi pa na umalis ka na lang, tanggalin mo na ang kadena mo, at hanapin ang totoo mong pangarap.

Mahirap sa umpisa, pero kailangan mong gawin. Kung di ngayon, kailan pa? Umpisahan mo na ang bagong buhay mo. Lumingon paminsan minsan sa nakaraan, para di malimutan ang mga pagkakamali. Matuto sa buhay. Bumangon ka, dahil di ka makakatayo kung di ikaw ang magtatayo sa sarili mo. Tumakbo ka ng mabilis. Habulin mo ang gusto mo. Habulin mo ang totoo mong pangarap.

A Wedding, A Bowling Tournament, and a Night of Dancing

A weekend that was so busy, I was so tired, but happy. I never thought I'd get through the weekend. Fortunately, classes were suspended today, and I have an extended weekend, thus, giving me a very much needed rest..

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The Wedding

My friend Alvin got married last Saturday, July 22. He's the youngest of the barkada, with him married, makes me the youngest of our group who isn't married. I did my bestfriend Janine's and bestfriend Mina's make up. I have to give myself snaps for doing a very good job. (",) I did put my talents to good use that day..

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The MITECCEAA Bowling Tournament

I didn't play, we didn't earn a single cent, and we did a lose some thousand pesos. But, we did have a lot of fun.

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The Ballroom Dancing Night

Last night, I went ballroom dancing with my mom. It was a charity event for my bestfriend Mina's mom. When I was younger, I was really talented in dancing. Last night, I realized I was not as good as I was before. The instructor had a hard time dancing with me. (Why did I know this, he was perspiring all over.. Not like when he danced with my mom.. HAHAHA!)

Kanta Muna Tayo!!

Songs that mean so much to me right now...

I could not find an link for this song, sung by Craig David,

UNBELIEVABLE

Always said I would know where to find love

Always thought I'd be ready and strong enough

But sometimes I just felt I could give up

But you came and you changed my whole world now

I'm somewhere I've never been before

Now I seeWhat love means

It's so unbelievable

And I don't wanna let it go

Its something so beautiful

Flowin down like a waterfall

I feel like you've always been

Forever a part of me

And it's so unbelievable

To finally be in love

Somewhere I never thought I'd be

In my heart in my head it's so clear now

hold my hand you've got nothin' to fear now

I was lost and you've rescued me somehow

I'm alive I'm in love you complete me

And I've never been here before

Now I see

What love means

When I think of what I have

And this chance I nearly lostI can't help but break down and cry

break down and cry

Now I see

What love means

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For this song, I found a link, I really love singing this song in Videokes...

SA KANYA

Namulat ako at ngayo'y nag-iisa
Pagkatapos ng ulan
Bagama't nakalipas na ang mga sandali
Ay nagmumuni kung ako'y nagwagi
Pinipilit mang sabihin na ito'y wala sa akin
Ngunit bakit hanggang ngayon, nagdurugo pa rin
Sa kanya pa rin babalik sigaw, ng damdamin
Sa kanya pa rin sasaya, bulong ng puso ko
Kung buhay pa ang alaala ng ating nakaraan
Ang pagmamahal at panahon alay pa rin sa kanya
At sa hatinggabi ay nag-iisa na lang
Ay minamasdan ang larawan mo
At ngayo'y bumalik nang siya'y kapiling pa
Alaala ng buong magdamag
Kung sakali mang isipin na ito'y wala sa akin
Sana'y dinggin ang tinig kong nag-iisa pa rin
Ang pagmamahal at panahon alay pa rin
Sa kanya, sa kanya, sa kanya, hah-ooh
Sa kanya.

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Such a meaningful song....

CONSTANTLY

I knew it was there
Though I tried to hide it
The feeling just kept on shining through
Haven't known you that long
So I try to deny it
But the feeling was much too
Much too strong
Could this be love, deep down inside
Tearing me apart, I feel it in my heart
Constantly, you're on my mind
Thinking about you all the time
I can't sleep no matter what I do
I just keep on thinking ‘bout you
Why do I feel this way?
When I know you have someone
That you're seeing each and everyday
Should I play this game of just being a friend?
When I know that's not where I want it to end
How could this be wrong?
When the feeling's so strong
Tearing me apart
I feel it in my heart
No I don't want to start no trouble
Between you and I and your lover
But I must tell you what I'm going through
Everytime you walk by I see love in your eyes

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Wala lang... Kasi maganda yung pagkakakanta.. May meaning? Meron, siguro noon, ngayon, di ko na alam, parehas na kame masaya...

LATER

How can you come with me

When you knew all along that you had to go

How could you watch me sleep close to you

Pretending not to know

How could you memorize my name

And forget who I am

How could you think you're still the same

Believing I can

It's too late to start pretending

It's too late for a new beginning

Later than the sunset

Later than the rain

Later than never

To love you again

How could you ask for more

Than an innocent smile

Trust in me to stay

How could you close the door

And leave me here

Supposing I'm okay

How could you break down my disguise

And uncover my fears

How could you look into my eyes

Ignoring my tears

yeah, yeah Oh

It's too late

UpDaTe!

The Vacation

My vacation was not totally wasted, I actually got to go on a "budget" vacation.. (Thanks to Fiona for arranging everything!) I went to one of the beautiful places in the Philippines.. Palawan was everything I expected it to be.

The water was beautiful, the beaches had fine and white sand, the weather was cooperative (it was already june when we went to Coron), and as always, I have the sunburn to prove it!

I was with great company, ate great food, all in a budget! I even invited my brother to go. And he did! I didn't actually think that my brother would go with us, and we did enjoy each other's company. It was really a blast!

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Another Quarter

Another quarter has passed, and I think, this is the quarter when I had the most difficult time. I was given a load that was way over my head. But I managed through it. God is so good to me. He knows that I really needed the extra cash. And He gave me the strength to do all that needs to be done. Praise Him!

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To My Dear Friend

I know you are going through a rough phase right now, and I really do not know what to say to you. I try my best to make you happy, or even just make you smile or laugh. I am sorry if at times I am difficult to deal with, I just sometimes forget that the world does not revolve around me. (",)

Please do remember, that I am here. I may not be with you physically, but my spirit is always with you. You can always count on me. Take care always and things will work out for the best! Do not worry!

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My Best Friend Mike Has Come Home!

He did come home, only to leave two weeks after. I sooo cherish our friendship, even if we have been apart for more than a year, when we saw each other, it was like as if he left yesterday! He left again for Singapore today, hoping to land a good job there. Well, to you my ever dearest friend, I do hope you find that a job that will satistfy your needs, be it intellectually, monetary or emotionally (?). Always remember that I will support your every endeavor. God bless always! (Ampunin mo ako kapag pumunta ako sa Singapore ha!)