My Singapore Adventure: Day 2

Hay naku.. We spent most of the day shopping! For electronics and trinkets.. Nabilhan ko na ung mga nagrequest at ung mga hindi nagrequest, keychain na lang po ang sa inyo.

We ate lunch at Funan, my lunch was sooooo hot! As in ANGHANG! Funan is like a sosyal Raon, more of Abenson Avant (multiplied by 8?), its like this big mall of electronics! Wanted to buy that 500GB external hdd, but I think I could not afford it yet. Converted to pesos, it costs about 5000.

Nest stop was Sim Lim, ito talaga Raon, pero mas sosyal pa din. Madaming mang-gagantso, buti na lang, magaling pa din kami tumanggi, bought my brother's iPod Touch here, parang mahal pero nung tinignan ko sa forums, 15k pa sa Pinas, kaya nakahinga ako ng matiwasay. I will not hear the end of it (from my brother) if I bought it for a much higher price. hahaha!

We got around Singapore by ourselves. Followed the streetmaps and the mrt maps. Buti na lang, you can get around the city by just taking the LRT/MRT. Of course, may mga kashungahan ever din ako, like going out the wrong exit, backtracking and finding our way again.

By the end of the day, I had sore leg muscles, tired of walking for two days! Met Analyn, James, Chay, Jenny, Jason, Mike and Dianne for dinner. They took us to the Gluttons Bay, as in gluttony talaga! Dami food at di namin naubos, naisip ko ang aking diet, and it went out the window! Sarap ng spicy food dito, sana lang, d pa ako umamoy! hahaha..

We also took pictures of the merlion, too bad, when we got to the famous Singapore monument, the water stopped running! waah! talk about malas! Ok lang, at least nakapag-papicture! Yehey!

My Singapore Adventure: Day 1

Manila: 5:30pm

Rushed to Mall of Asia coming from my God-daughter's birthday party. I had to buy a few things, chippy and tortillos for james and krispy kreme for mike. Papa was patiently waiting for me outside the mall, so he didn't have to park, after 15 minutes, I was in his car, on the way to the newly-opened NAIA Terminal 3 (nothing to be excited about, di pa ayos eh.)

Manila: 7:00pm
Checked in most of the baggage, patiently waiting to board, Dianne, Tita and Sir Glen were hungry so we ordered in a Jollibee kiosk that offered chicken in jolly hotdog styros. I didn't want to ruin my trip so I just took whatever's available.

Manila: 8:30pm
We were supposed to board but then again, out flight was not being called yet. An hour and a half later, we were asked to transfer to a different gate. Talk about hassle.

Manila 10:30pm
At last!!! Boarding time! (Sidenote lang: Jacqui Yllana was one of the flight stewards. She's still very pretty.) Within a few minutes, we were airborne. For the first time, I got to sit in a window seat. I really hate flying, I got dizzy within 10 minutes. Fortunately, the last row, was unoccupied, so I stretched out to sleep. I thought I was going to fall asleep easily but guess what, I was near the lavatories, and everytime someone would flush the toilet, I'd wake up. So much for a fun ride.

Singapore: 2 am
Budget Terminal! What a name!! Talagang pinalangdakan na mahirap ako! Still didn't have Singapore dollars, so Dianne paid for the cab ride home. Ate dinner and fell asleep at around 4am. Namahay ako, di ako agad nakatulog.

Singapore: 11am
Went to church with Mike, Dianne, Tita and Sir Glen, I was not able to attend the every nation service because it was so far from Mike's place and I knew I would not be ready in time, plus I didn't know how to get there. Oh my. After church, off to the city! Changed my pesos to dollars. Had my first mrt ride. Took a lot of pictures in Orchard Road! So many shops and malls, too little money!!!

Singapore: 2pm
Lunchtime!! yahoo! Had roasted pork (it was like lechon macau!). After lunch, walk again! super walking ito. Went hotel-hopping. Went to the 76th floor of this very tall building and saw the city. (Pictures to follow!) We also rode the Flyer, the world's largest "ferry's wheel". Took 2 years off my life because of the height! Oh my..

Singapore: 7pm
Marina. Dinner Time! Had Laksa, a local cuisine. Really delicious! Yum yum. Then shopping. There goes my credit card! huhu....

Singapore: 9pm
Home at last! Watched PDA little dreamers, to see Richard judge the kids.. He was too kind. haha.. He's looking a bit slimmer on tv. hhmmm.. I went to bed at around 11:30pm..

Today is another day.. Malamang, maubos na naman pera ko ngayon! waaahh!!!

Tuesday Night Out

Before, I found it very weird to go out on a Monday night, back when 7th Soul used played at Off the Grill in Timog on such a night. Going out on a Tuesday night was also not at all bad. Just because I was with good company. My ever-dependable bestfriend Mina obliged to join me in Dapo Restaurant and Bar, also in Timog, where former Side A lead guitarist Kelly Badon was playing. Kelly sent me a text message last Monday, inviting me to watch them and his two bandmates. All I can say is that Donna, the 18-year-old vocalist, could really blow! I could not figure out how she was singing those songs because all of them were very difficult, very difficult to sing inspite of or despite of (I don't know which one to use) the fact that she wasn't feeling well. I was really impressed. I hope next time they could play/sing more songs per set. (",)

Off the Grill Night Out with the Cisco Crew and 7th Soul

The Cisco Crew went out again, this time, eating out and drinking at Off the Grill in Timog, Quezon City. There was a little misunderstanding with the staff of OTG as they mixed up the reservations I made the night before. But all went well, mabuti na lang maaga sina Rowell. I do hope everyone enjoyed because 7th Soul played 3 superb sets (despite the bad sound system).

The girls and I also "surprised" Angelo with a cake and tarp (courtesy of the ever reliable, super duper kind and most of all beautiful Ms. Nikka Sotelo!). Right after his song number in the second set, the waiters brought in two cakes, from the girls and the band, and the tarp. Right after the set, off we went to the band table to get a piece of the cake Bam brought (oh well, they ate, i didn't, too sweet!). They also congratulated Leo for being the newest member of the band, officially! (Congrats Leo!)


Angelo's brother Michael came (as he always does) and the crowd egged him on singing with the band. He sang two songs and he was good! (La pa praktis un ah!)

To cap the night off, I had another terrible mishap. Deuel and Leo rode with us to the terminal, the guard at off the grill told me that I had a flat. I thought that I was only running my tire soft but when we arrived at the gas station, I really had a flat! Good thing I had tools and I knew how to replace a flat tire. But Deuel insisted on helping me replace the tire, and I was really ashamed because he should not have done that. I asked Benjiegirl to call Bam or Niño so they can pick up the two, Bam came a few minutes later and my the tire replacement was almost finished. I asked them to ride with Bam and told them we will be fine. After a few minutes, we were also off. Hay! What a night! Disaster!

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My Straight Hair!<My Cisco Family Happy Birthday Angelo! Congrats Leo!!

Here in My Life

We have been singing this in church, and the very first time I sang this, I cried, tinamaan talaga ako ng husto. I super love this song, I still get teary eyed when I listen to this song.

Here In My Life Lyrics
Hillsongs Australia

I have never walked on water
felt the waves beneath my feet but
at Your word Lord, I'll receive Your
faith to walk on oceans deep

and I remember how You found me
in the very same place
all my failings surely would have drowned me
still You made a way

You are my freedom
Jesus, You're the reason
I'm kneeling again at Your throne
where would I be without You here in my life
here in my life

You have said that all the heavens
sing for joy at one who finds the
way to freedom, truth of Jesus
bought from death into His life

and I remember how You saw me
through the eyes of Your grace

and though the cost was Your beloved for me
still You made a way

ANNOUNCEMENT: ECE 463 AND ECE 002 (NO CLASSES, JULY 11)

My dear students,

I will not be holding classes on July 11, as I am very very very tired of the certification examination we took today. I apologize and will make it up to you soon. God bless! Enjoy the free day!

Engr. Tiong

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parang excuse letter anoh! hehehe...

To Go For The Dream or To Settle For The Habit

It's not really a question, more of a decision. My friend told me to go for both, I have nothing to lose if I go for both. But really, I think I have to decide which one to take and which one to "leave".

One is a habit, for me, choosing this would mean settling, meaning I am accepting the fact that I can not get my dream. But going for the dream would mean risking getting hurt. What to do?? hehehe...

ANNOUNCEMENT: Cisco 3 B1 Students

The Packet Tracer Finals and the Online Finals will push through this Wednesday, June 25. Please be ready!

10 things most people do not know about me.. TAGGED!!!

I was tagged by Janine…

HERE ARE THE RULES:
1. Each blogger starts with ten random facts/habits about themselves.
2. Bloggers that are tagged need to write on their own blog about their ten things and post these rules.
3. At the end of your blog, you need to choose 10 people to get tagged and list their breads.
4. Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged, and to read your blog.

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Ok, I figured since I am so open to everybody, and almost everybody who knows me knows my idiosyncrasies, I'll write things that most people do not know about me, things that only my bestfriends would only know. Let me begin with:

1. I do not like chocolates (but I eat chocolates, very rarely). Let me explain. I get dizzy (diabetic?? not really) when I eat chocolates. I only eat black chocolates with macadamia nuts (cadbury lang!). But occasionally, I eat red or blue M&Ms (arte noh!, parang iba kasi ung sweetness eh). I feel disappointed talaga when I receive chocolates as pasalubong or gift kasi I just give it to my sister who's an absolute chocoholic!

2. I love receiving flowers as gifts. Although it doesn't last long, but the memory of receving the flowers on a regular day or on a special day, stays with me for a long time. I still remember the people who gave me flowers since I was in grade school.

3. I actually contemplated leaving my profession 3 to 4 years ago. I wanted to pursue another career path that is so (180 degrees!) different with what I do now. My mother supported this decision, the problem is, my father didn't. He didn't allow me to leave the country thus he didn't approve of this move. Well, what is this new "career" that I wanted to pursue? It will remain a secret (for now).

4. I just realized, that I am not ready to bear children. If and when I get married, my (soon-to-be) husband will have to convince me (sobrang convincing) to have kids. When I was younger (about 4 to 8 years ago), I always wanted to have lots of children, at least 4, because I only have 2 siblings and it gets lonely when one of us leaves the house for out of town trips. Why suddenly a change of heart? I read somewhere that when you feel the need to nurture, and if you are not sure if you are ready for children, GET A DOG. Well, my sister got us a black labrador, and I love him dearly, but he's kind of a pain now, and he's growing up, he chews on my clothes and shoes and consumes so much food! Compared to a child, the money I spend on our dog is not as much (not even 0.0001%) as I would be spending on a child. I have to prepare for education, spend lots of time, effort and energy to show my love and affection to this child. What more if I had more than one? My life will be so different! But if it is the will of God for me to have children, of course, His will be done.

5. My ultimate dream is to be a very supportive and very loving HOUSEWIFE! haha! I know, it's quite ironic that I am not ready for children but I'd be very happy to serve a husband. Don't ask why because I myself do not know the reason.

6. I am a frustrated web designer. But I am not at all artistic. I have been building sites since I was in college. I get inspiration from other sites. I try my best to update all the sites that I created but I will not be broadcasting the sites I made. hahaha!

7. I am totally addicted to watching television series. Korean, chinese or american series! Once I'm hooked, I have to finish it immediately! I've featured coffee prince, one of my all-time favorites, here in this site. My other faves are: kim sam soon (I really hate it that Regine V is doing a remake of it, parang di bagay!), my girl, meteor garden, full house, Which star are you from, gossip girl, ONE TREE HILL, CSI and CSI miami!

8. I am not into American food. I love to eat chinese, korean, italian and filipino cuisine. I like few japanese cuisine (takoyaki and the japanese siomai only!). I also love to cook. More of experiment with cooking. I normally rummage through the kitchen when I am hungry, find whatever's on the pantry, mix ingrediates and just hope that it will taste good. Until recently, I made good food, last night, I made a terrible mistake of mixing bangus with oyster sauce. hahaha!!!

9. I have the nasty habit of fiddling with my clotting wounds, or rough skin around my fingertips or feet. Hahaha! Kaya hindi mabilis gumaling ang mga sugat at pimples ko! Nakakaasar noh!

10. Lastly, I find pleasure in grocery shopping! It's really corny, but I've given up being a shopaholic since I had to take some financial responsibilities at home. The next best thing is going out to buy groceries. Especially when the grocery that I will go to has everything (example: SM MOA and SM Bacoor!) I love looking at housewares, pots and pans, things that I might need around the kitchen or anywhere around the house that would absolutely look good or find use for.

I do hope you now know me a little bit better, and will not be surprised with the "revelations" I made in this entry. And now for the exciting part!!! I’m tagging the following people: aileen, alhexe jessica, ronald, romeo, nalen, tonix, bebang, jop, marvin and whoever wants to answer this tag. Please let me know if you already did, so i can read it too! God bless!

SAVE GAS!!!

I got this from my kumare Eliza, may help some of the car owners I know.. Let's save gas! Go carpool!

TIPS ON PUMPING GAS

I don't know what you guys are paying for gasoline.... but here in California (so it is not me) we are also paying higher, up to $3.50 per gallon. But my line of work is in petroleum for about 31 years now, so here are some tricks to get more of your money's worth for every gallon..

Here at the Kinder Morgan Pipeline where I work in San Jose , CA we deliver about 4 million gallons in a 24-hour period thru the pipeline. One day is diesel the next day is jet fuel, and gasoline, regular and premium grades. We have 34-storage tanks here with a total capacity of 16,800,000 gallons.

Only buy or fill up your car or truck in the early morning when the ground temperature is still cold. Remember that all service stations have their storage tanks buried below ground. The colder the ground the more dense the gasoline, when it gets warmer gasoline expands, so buying in the afternoon or in the evening....your gallon is not exactly a gallon. In the petroleum business, the specific gravity and the temperature of the gasoline, diesel and jet fuel, ethanol and other petroleum products plays an important role.

A 1-degree rise in temperature is a big deal for this business. But the service stations do not have temperature compensation at the pumps.

When you're filling up do not squeeze the trigger of the nozzle to a fast mode. If you look you will see that the trigger has three (3)stages: low, middle, and high. In slow mode you should be pumping on low speed, thereby minimizing the vapors that are created while you are pumping. All hoses at the pump have a vapor return. If you are pumping on the fast rate, some other liquid that goes to your tank becomes vapor. Those vapors are being sucked up and back into the underground storage tank so you're getting less worth for your money.

One of the most important tips is to fill up when your gas tank is HALF FULL or HALF EMPTY. The reason for this is, the more gas you have in your tank the less air occupying its empty space. Gasoline evaporates faster than you can imagine. Gasoline storage tanks have an internal floating roof. This roof serves as zero clearance between the gas and the atmosphere, so it minimizes the evaporation. Unlike service stations, here where I work, every truck that we load is temperature compensated so that every gallon n is actually the exact amount.

Another reminder, if there is a gasoline truck pumping into the storage tanks when you stop to buy gas, DO NOT fill up--most likely the gasoline is being stirred up as the gas is being delivered, and you might pick up some f the dirt that normally settles on the bottom. Hope this will help you get the most value for your money.

DO SHARE THESE TIPS WITH OTHERS!

Spark! Nawala??

haay.. di ko maintindihan ang sarili ko, nakakatawa ako, one day its here, the next day, its gone. i hate the fact that i felt this way when i got to "know" him a little bit better. sabi ng ibang officemate ko, elitista daw ako, eh hindi naman totoo yun. pero na - turn off talaga ako sa mga nalaman ko about him, and its driving me crazy, i really can not concentrate on my work, i always think about it, the way that i was "driven away" by what i learned. am i an elitist? no i really don't think so. i just don't know how to explain it. i think i just have to wait and see what will happen when i see him again. hay talaga! naaasar ako sa sarili ko!

Spark! Nawala?

Naghahanap ako ng DORM sa Intramuros!

HELP! ang mahal na ng gasolina. by next week daw, madagdagan na ng 11 pesos ang presyo ng gas. ang sweldo ko ay di tumataas. kamusta naman ako nun? uubusin na lang ng gas ang sweldo ko? help me naman. tulungan nyo ako maghanap ng dorm sa intramuros. hay! thanks a lot!

Spark!

My friend Leslie was driving the traffic-laden EDSA yesterday evening (while I was sitting comfortably on the passenger seat) after bonding with our other friends Jeff, Eliza and our inaanak Erin. We got into this conversation about our almost non-existent "love-lives". Oh well, it got me into talking about this guy whom I met over two months ago. Of course, I assumed nothing, I do not expect anything, but this other friend of mine, whose identity will remain a secret, gets so kilig everytime this guy and I would engage into a conversation. Leslie was so excited with this "fact". Spark daw ang tawag dun. What???? Anong spark??? Ngayon ko lang ata nadinig yun!

Can somebody explain to me the word spark?? And what does it have to do with me? Hahaha!!!!

Lord, bring my passion back...

I've been feeling tired these past few weeks, I feel like I am not giving my 100% in my work and I think I temporarily lost my passion for teaching. I hope its not permanent, because I really love what I do, but these past few weeks have been hard on me. I attend my classes just because I need to, and teach half-heartedly. Is it because of my students? Is it because I have so much to do? Is it because of the "salary"? Or is it because of me? Have I really lost my passion for teaching?

I now pray every day and night for my passion in teaching to come back. If the Lord says no to my request, I think I will have to move on to the next phase of my life. Whatever it is, the Lord has the answer. I am lifting it up to Him, I know He will be there to hold my hand and get me through this phase.

Richard Poon's First Solo Album!

Locally available in all SM record bars, Odyssey, MusicOne, Astrovision and Tower Records!

Consistently in Odyssey's Top 20 Best Sellers!

If you are ABROAD, you can buy RP's album online, via Titik Pilipino.

Negativity!

Been 'NEGA' these past few days. I actually cried one time as I was driving myself to school. Buti na lang I was able to share it with a few people. Kung di ko siguro na-share, baka mag - breakdown na ako! hahaha!! Kidding aside, buti na lang strong ang faith ko, grabe kasi minsan ang mga "kaaway", sobrang mang - tempt! Naisip ko kasi minsan, di ba, God's love can be felt through our "neighbor". Pero di pala ganun yun, paano kung yung neighbor eh kakampi o naimpluwensyahan ng kaaway di ba? Kaya ngayon, di ko na hinahanap ang love ni God sa maling neighbor. hehehe!
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Bukas, company outing namin, tinatamad ako sumama, kasi naman, ang layo at ang init, parang gusto ko na lang mag pahinga sa bahay namin kahit mainit, at least makakatulog ako. Birthday din ni angel sa Thursday, at walang pasok yun! Tapos sa Friday naman, concert na ni Richard Poon, hay! Super excited ako, first time ko kasi makikita si Piolo in person! Jologs na kung jologs. Piolo is a beautiful man. Inggit lang ang nagsasabi na bading siya. Ultimate siya talaga!
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At pinakahuli! May bago akong crush. Super simple lang siya. Super mabait at higit sa lahat, di malaki ang ulo niya. Ang cute ng smile nya, at di siya maputi. Di din siya chinese, pinoy na pinoy. hay! ang saya!

3rd Week of Vacation

It has been three weeks already? This will be my last week of vacation and I am still not totally rested. The sun has been draining all my strength because of this horrible heat, I am not able to sleep well, and I could not lounge around in a pool or beach because it is too darn hot!

I've been very busy these last 3 weeks with all the things I needed to do and wanted to do. The Cisco Skills. The PRC conversion. The NAMA Food Committee Preps. The Performance Bonus Preps. Haaay!

First Week: Holy week!
The first two days of holy week was spent in school. Deadline of submission of grades was set on Holy Monday (I think, or was it Tuesday? Haha!) and the cramer that I was, of course I was going to submit grades on the last day! I was juggling between reviewing the Cisco team and finalizing grades. On Holy Wednesday I knew I had to rest or my head will explode. So I spent the day, sleeping. On Maundy Thursday, my siblings and I went to Tagaytay, only to spend 1 hour of traffic (in Tagaytay! at least we were there!) sitting on my brother's new car. We, my sister and I, wanted to eat merienda in Tagaytay but to no avail, traffic was heavy. My brother did not want to waste his hard earned moolah on gas that was wasting on traffic, so we headed to Alabang and had dinner there. It was not really relaxing but at least my sibs and I bonded on our little trip. On Good Friday, I prepared questions for my cisco team because on Black Saturday, we studied, ONLINE! The wonders of technology! On Easter Sunday, we were back in school, and reviewed the whole day!

Week Two: The Cisco Skills competition and convention
My team and I still studied on Monday and Tuesday, and headed off to Tagaytay on Wednesday. We arrived at 4pm and still continued to study until they could not handle it no more. Thursday was contest day, and as you may know, we were second place.

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Sidenote muna
On Being Second Place
Some people might think that being second place is not actually winning, it is actually losing to the first placers. Well, to me, it is all a matter of perspective. I did receive a wireless router, and my team received twenty thousand pesos, so how could anyone think that we lost? They received money, I received a router, and life lessons / experiences that no one could actually buy! Of the TOP THREE teams last year, we were the ONLY team who actually made it BACK to this years TOP THREE, and RETAINED the position, not bad eh? We still brought glory to the school. Plus, my kids have a chance to be employed in a multinational company that provides networking equipment (ahem ahem, we were in the CISCO convention right? hehehe!) Too much of my boasting. Back to being second place, I learned so much with this experience, and it gives us something to work hard for next year. Of course, new students, new team and new rules. Who knows, maybe we'll bag that elusive first place next year!
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The rest of week flew by so quickly, and on Saturday, we were supposed to head down to Batangas to celebrate the victory, but on some unfortunate event (right Patrick, BK! hehehe.. joke lang), we decided to head home. We were supposed to head off to Zambales the next day but we decided to head on to Zambales on Saturday night. We left Tagaytay at 5pm and arrived in Zambales at 3:30am. I drove all the way. By the time we were at Weng's house, I immediately fell asleep on my trusted ol' car. Sunday was a total blast! The water was cool and I really enjoyed swimming on the not-so-salty waters. Thanks to the Comlab kids! I will miss all of you!

Third Week: Dota Week
I went to school, to tidy up my pigeon holes at the cisco laboratory, and when I finished, I played dota until it was closing time. I did this for four days. Dota for four days! It was fine, because I was able to achieve some of the goals I set this vacation: throw away all the clutter in my pigeon holes, submit my end of term requirements (class records, final exams and course portfolios), convert my PRC license from Electronics and Communications Engineer (ECE) to Electronics Engineer (ECE), set up schedules for food tasting for NAMA and started to burn it out in the gym! Last Saturday, I was so excited because my bestfriend Mina, who worked in Japan for 1 year, was finally coming home. So I went to the airport to pick her up. We had another round of bloopers and the whole parking lot of the NAIA terminal was witness to the whole bruhaha! Thanks to one wonderful soul who helped us out with out little big BOX of dilemma. hahaha!

Fourth Week: This week, my last week of vacation
I have things lined up for this week. Today, bonding with Mina. Tuesday, send off yaya to the pier. Wednesday, food tasting in Quezon City. Thursday and Friday, MAPUA, planning sessions. Saturday, spa. Sunday, rest. OH well, hopefully.

I hope you enjoyed your vacation as I did mine. Never mind resting..

I am Tagging You

I was amused by this blog entry from Don Bagsit, but instead of answering it just like a survey, I am tagging you, the reader of this entry, to repost this and answer it also. So here goes:
1.Real Name:
Emma - Ruth Mendez Tiong

2. YOUR GANGSTA NAME:
(first four letters of your name, plus zzie)
Emmazzie (yuck, it doesn't sound right!)

3. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME:
(fav color and fav animal)
Blue Dog

4. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME:
(middle name, and current street)
Mendez Virgo

5. YOUR STAR WARS NAME:
(the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first name, first 3 letters of mom's name)
TioEmEmm

6. SUPERHERO NAME:
(2nd favorite color, favorite drink)
Red Four Seasons

7. IRAQI NAME:
(2nd letter of your first name, 3rd letter of your last name, any letter of your middle name, 2nd letter of your moms maiden name, 3rd letter of your dads middle name, 1st letter of a siblings first name, last letter of your moms middle name)
Mozesaz (what?)

8. MONUMENT NAME:
(fathers or mothers middle name)
Gomez (my mom's middle name, it sounds more "monument"-like than Rasing, which is my father's middle name)

9. GOTH NAME:
(3rd favorite color, and the name of one your pets)
Black Gabbie

10. SCREEN NAME:
(any of your tv's brand and your mom's middle name)
Sony Gomez

Lips of an Angel... A sad (and true) love story..

Disclaimer: Emote blog, may bore you to death.

I believe it's a dream for everyone to fall in love and be loved back, or just find somebody to love. Well, in my twenty - something years (ayaw pa aminin!), I fell in love, got hurt and recovered. I've learned and moved on. But sometimes, I can't help but remember the past, look back, think it through, and ask myself, "What went wrong? What did he want? What is he looking for? What was I looking for?". And during those times, I find myself overwhelmed with emotion, and tears flow down from my eyes. A single song can start a bucket-full of tears. Just like this one: LIPS OF AN ANGEL (by Hinder). I can so relate to the song. I think the song was made for me (hahaha! kapal ng mukha!)

Honey why you calling me so late? It's kinda hard to talk right now.

It started with friendship, just like any other romantic relationship. It ended after almost two years, one day, we just felt that it would be better to love each other as friends than constantly hurt each other as lovers. We wanted to save the friendship, so we stopped being lovers. Dreams were shattered. Hearts were broken. We remained friends, best of friends even. We shared victories and defeats, laughter and tears, joys and sorrows. But sometimes, I feel like I got the bad end of the deal. Why? Because he's got somebody now. When I don't.

Honey why are you crying? Is everything okay? I gotta whisper 'cause I can't be too loud.

Last year, I called him, the night of my birthday, we talked (on the mobile!) for more than 15 minutes. Well, more of I sobbed for 15 minutes, and he listened while I cried my eyes out. He felt so guilty. I didn't blame him for anything. I just cried and cried.

Well, my girl's in the next room. Sometimes I wish she was you. I guess we never really moved on. It's really good to hear your voice say my name. It sounds so sweet. Coming from the lips of an angel, hearing those words it makes me weak. And I never wanna say goodbye. But girl you make it hard to be faithful, With the lips of an angel.

We still get together for snacks or dinner. We still have the long talks. We still make each other smile and laugh. I sometimes wonder why we parted ways. Sometimes I wish we should have saved the relationship. We should have worked on the difficulties.

It's funny that you're calling me tonight. And, yes, I've dreamt of you too.

I constantly dream about him, and I normally tell him about it. It varies from the things that happened in the past, things that I want or may have wanted to happen, or things that he may have wanted to happen. And it starts this rollercoaster of feelings of I don't know what. I really can't explain it.

And does she know you're talking to me, will it start a fight. No I don't think she has a clue.

I know he is in a commited relationship right now. Sometimes I regret the fact that I let him go, that I did not fight for him. And sometimes, I feel guilty whenever he spends time with me to talk or just listen to my endless stories and problems, because he should be spending it with his girl. I feel confused with all of these feelings, and I have been praying hard that I lose all these confusing feelings.

Well, my girl's in the next room. Sometimes I wish she was you. I guess we never really moved on. It's really good to hear your voice say my name. It sounds so sweet. Coming from the lips of an angel, hearing those words it makes me weak. And I never wanna say goodbye. But girl you make it hard to be faithful, With the lips of an angel.

I'd like to think that I've already moved on. That we moved on. But being truly honest with myself, I know I still love him, it's just that I really don't get to show him that love on a regular basis that's making it easy for me. Occasionally, I wish that we lost touch, that we never really kept contact, or stop being friends, even just for awhile, until I'm completely healed. Just until I find someone new. Just until I can say "I don't love you."