I Am in a Relationship, But Not Really.

Those who are really close to me know what I mean.

When I think of our "relationship", tears always show at the edge of my eyes. Di naman ako umiiyak, naluluha lang. True, everytime I THINK of the situation I am in, I cry a little. I am not blaming anybody, I only have myself to blame. This is what I wanted, I am just getting what I deserve.

I am in love, yes, these are the happiest days of my life, but I can not claim that I am 100% happy. I love him so much it hurts. I know that this day will come. When fear starts creeping in.. Anticipating the hurt, the pain of this love will bring..

When I started to love him, I gave him the power to hurt me. Love will always come with pain I always say. But why does the pain have to be this much? Will it hurt more when I love him more??