A Nutcase's Insight...

Life's Decisions are Always DIFFICULT!

But these decisions have to be made.

Everyday, when I wake up, I am always faced with a decision. To stay or let go.

Staying would mean extending my "artificial happiness" while at the back of my mind I know there is nothing to be happy about.

*Artificial Happiness: a state of being of this Nutcase's

superficial, looking fine and happy but deep

inside there is nothing but pain and tears.

Letting go would mean pain but in time, I know I will heal. Letting go would also mean hurting him, asking him to let go and stop fighting for something we do not know is worth fighting for.

True love should be given a chance, true love should be worth fighting for.. But what if this is not true love??

I question myself everyday, not making a decision is just prolonging the agony. Pushing the question aside and not making a decision is like making a decision to stay. In the mean time, I live each day as if it were my last... I am going to die anyway... WE are all going to die anyway.. hahahaha...