I Decided to Cut My Hair Again..

Yup, I did have a haircut again, but the change is not drastic, it was just a trim but I asked for a hairstyle that had bangs. So I'd look younger.. hehehe... I couldn't post a picture yet because I have a huge pimple and I couldn't take a picture. (",)

Why did I decide to have it cut again? I actually wanted to cut it one month ago pa, it was only yesterday that I had the time.. Hmmm...

My U-Turn Week..

Literally speaking, I made a u-turn this week. I've done things I never thought I was capable of doing. I actually felt a little bad to some of the things I did, because I was very hurtful. But then again, these things needed to be done. And, I went out the whole week. Just to hang out with friends or watch "U-Turn". I actually watched U-Turn three times this week! I can not believe it...

Tuesday: Aruba, SM Mall of Asia
Thursday: Caliente, Malate
Friday: Hard Rock Cafe, Makati

Richard and I at Hard Rock Cafe

How Much Do You Love Me?

While I was watching TV last night, this guy was asking the girl this question, "How much do you love me?". The girl answered, "very very much, forever and ever..". I remember being asked me this question, but I guess, I never answered it before. I eluded answering this question. I just do not know how to answer this question.

But now, I do have the answers, how much did I love thee? It's waking up in the morning, thinking if he was able to sleep well, will he have breakfast waiting for him on the dining table, if not, I will be very happy to prepare for him. Is he feeling well, if not, I'll be by his side to take care of him, to watch his temperature, to make sure he doesn't feel pain, by just being there. Loving him involved thinking about him first, before me. He comes first before me. Even if it means being hated by most of my loved ones, as long as he is happy, with me beside him.

Not anymore. I have to come first, its me first. I can only love someone else, if I learn to love myself first.

Endings...

Happy endings.. Sad endings..

Happy Ending....

I just finished watching the Koreanovela "My Girl". It took so many sleepless nights! I was on addict mode with this dvd! I thought it will be a sad ending, but it was wrong. In a way, I related to some parts of the story.. All the lies.. Hahaha! That's why I cried so many times in this series.. Just like I cried over "My Lovely Sam Soon". But I really enjoyed this series. I'll be watching it several times over, once I finish all my work! Hehehe.. One line I will not forget in this series: "You'll be blessed!"....

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Sad Ending....

I have my share of sad endings. I think the last ending I had, is the saddest one of all. But this is what should happen. Doing the right thing is most important. Being fair to myself and to all who love me is also important. It is a sad ending, one ending I will never forget. Now, I am so much stronger. So much better. Ready to face the world again. Ready to fight again.

I pray that the good Lord give me the strength to keep going. Keep this attitude. Be happy. Happy in my lonesome, or happy with someone.

The Week That Was..

I mentioned last week that my week was full, because we were celebrating Janine's birthday the whole week.. We did celebrate it, but I extended it a little. This was my week..

Monday: Aruba Bar Metrowalk, watched U-Turn

Tuesday: Went home early, I really had to sleep

Wednesday: Tavern on the Square GB3, watched Side A

Thursday: Went home early, I fell asleep as soon as my sat down on the bus. Very tiring day..

Friday: Starbucks Pasay Road, with Janine, Mina, Kel and Leslie.. When I got home, I watched "My Girl" all night, until the sun came out! So I didn't sleep.

Saturday: MITECCEAA event in the morning at Mapua Intramuros, movies after lunch with Leslie at the SM Mall of Asia, meeting at 6pm back in Mapua Intramuros, then dinner at McDonald's Intramuros.

My week was really full! This week, I only had a total of 21 hours of sleep. I do need to catch up! Because I'll feel weak if I don't. Although it was tiring, it was fun, I had a great time, I was with good company, and in the loving arms of my friends. (",)

:p

In one of Janine's CELEBRATIONs...

Lee Von of Side A and Me....

I really love this picture. Not because I am beside Leevon, but I think I look good in this picture. My tummy is quite big, but I love the aura of my smile. I think I was genuinely happy when I had this picture taken. (",)

Do I Look Wasted??!!

U-Turn and Me..

Nahihiya pa ako magpapicture nyan, gusto ko kasi may kasamang iba..

(From Left: James, Teri, Maruth, Richard, Bam)

I really had a blast with my friends last night. U-Turn was great! They played my two requested songs (Kahit Maputi Na Ang Buhok Ko and Tuwing Umuulan). They were so nice and very patient. Even if we wanted a hundred thousand pictures, they still smiled after two tiring sets. Thanks for last night Janine! I really needed that! Mwah!

Happy Birthday Janine!

It's Janine's birthday tomorrow.. And we will celebrate it the whole week! It's Janine's birthday week!

Monday, We'll be at Aruba Metrowalk, to watch U-turn..

Tuesday, I do not know yet..

Wednesday, We'll be at Tavern on the Square at GB3, to watch Side A..

Thursday, Caliente (maybe??) hehehe...

Friday, I do not know yet...

I'm sure as hell I'll get wasted tomorrow night.. because I won't be driving.. I'll be sleeping over so I do not have to worry about drinking too much! Hahaha!

Standing On My Own Two Feet

It's times like these that I miss having a boyfriend. It's been awhile since my last "real" boyfriend. I am counting the YEARS right now... It has been FIVE LONG YEARS! Too long if you ask me. Why did I say I miss having a boyfriend? Just like tonight. It's a Friday night, I just got home from the gym (it's like a routine already, Friday nights at the gym, dinner on the bus, too lazy to drive, while traversing the horrible - traffic - ridden roads in Cavite).

But for all the years of my life, with or without a boyfriend, I was always indepent. Why do I feel this now? Why do I feel that I need to depend on somebody?

I just miss the days, days when somebody was taking care of me. Yung bang:

Susunduin, ihahatid, dadalhan ng flowers, mamasyal, dinadalaw ang family, kumakain ng sabay, yung may nagtatanong kung nasaan na ako, ano ginagawa ko, nakakain na ba ako, matutulog na ba ako. Yun bang: may "I Love You" message sa cellphone ko, kahit wala lang dahilan, yung mga "good nights" na never ending.. At kung anu ano pang ka-jologan na ginagawa ng mga taong 'inlabo' (inlove).

But I am strong, I will hold back all these feelings, and wait for the right one. I will not settle for anything less. Because I know I am worth it. I'll keep on STANDING on my own two feet.

Its a Mad World Out There

I just had an encounter with m*therf*cking policemen tonight. I was in a private compound, that had signs to prevent heavy traffic. Unfortunately, they needed the help of the police to keep the order and peace in the community. The police was there to help keep peace in the community and NOT HANDLE TRAFFIC! The administration of the compound has disregarded implementation of the traffic signs mainly because the residents / occupants of the offices found it difficult to abide by these rules (Would you fine the nation's largest newspaper with "No parking" and "one way" violation tickets?) and the implementation of these rules are just plain dumb and silly. They even removed some signs, and some were left hanging. This one motherf*cking policeman maybe was on a power trip. He asked for our driver's licenses, and asked us to go to the outpost. He probably didn't know that we knew, that the police had no ticketing powers in that area. He even made us wait an hour, while the other policemen were threatening us that he went to get the tickets. I believe this policemen were just waiting for an AREGLO (BRIBE). I will not bribe the motherf*cking police because I knew I did not do anything wrong. If there was a ONE WAY sign, it was very far from where I took my turn.

I am just freaking tired of all the police who act as if they always have the power. I am not saying that all are greedy, but most of them are. I still salute the police who can be trusted and stand firm on the principles taught by the academy. AND to YOU MR. GREEDY POLICEMAN, do not underestimate people, especially their intelligence. BAKA MAKATAPAT KAYO NG PAPATOL SA INYO. MANGHULI LANG KAYO KUNG TAMA NA MANGHULI KAYO, KUNG MANGHUHULI KAYO DAHIL SA LAGAY, HUMANDA KAYO, DAHIL MATATALINO NA ANG TAO NGAYON. MAY ARAW DIN KAYO.