Standing On My Own Two Feet

It's times like these that I miss having a boyfriend. It's been awhile since my last "real" boyfriend. I am counting the YEARS right now... It has been FIVE LONG YEARS! Too long if you ask me. Why did I say I miss having a boyfriend? Just like tonight. It's a Friday night, I just got home from the gym (it's like a routine already, Friday nights at the gym, dinner on the bus, too lazy to drive, while traversing the horrible - traffic - ridden roads in Cavite).

But for all the years of my life, with or without a boyfriend, I was always indepent. Why do I feel this now? Why do I feel that I need to depend on somebody?

I just miss the days, days when somebody was taking care of me. Yung bang:

Susunduin, ihahatid, dadalhan ng flowers, mamasyal, dinadalaw ang family, kumakain ng sabay, yung may nagtatanong kung nasaan na ako, ano ginagawa ko, nakakain na ba ako, matutulog na ba ako. Yun bang: may "I Love You" message sa cellphone ko, kahit wala lang dahilan, yung mga "good nights" na never ending.. At kung anu ano pang ka-jologan na ginagawa ng mga taong 'inlabo' (inlove).

But I am strong, I will hold back all these feelings, and wait for the right one. I will not settle for anything less. Because I know I am worth it. I'll keep on STANDING on my own two feet.