Looking Back and Moving Forward

2007 was a great year. I won and lost. I met people and gained friends. I built bridges, but also burned some. Achieved and bragged. Lost and was humbled. Let go and moved on. New experiences, new things.

In a nutshell, I loved myself in 2007. I was true to myself. I gave myself credit. I forgave myself. I was reunited with my Savior. Most importantly, I knew myself a whole lot better this year.

But enough of 2007, I am more excited with the coming year. I'll be a year older in the month of January. Mina will be back home in April. My laptop will be fully paid by May. I sort of promised myself to visit friends in Singapore on or before July. The Kolokoys promised that we'll go to Boracay in June or July. And in December, I do hope all the Kolokoys will be able to join us for Christmas breakfast in Tagaytay.

I want to make another list, of the things I'd like to buy for 2008, just like the one I made last year. Here is my "I CAN'T BUY NOW" List:

1. That new watch that I've been pining to buy since last year. But I sort of changed my mind with the brand. I think I like the designs of Fossil as well. If I can afford a Tag, I just might buy that.
2. A new techie gadget. Ipod? Iphone? PSP? PS3? Wii? Professional Camera? Mobile phone?
3. An all-expense paid vacation for me and my family. Of course, it will just be somewhere here in the Philippines.
4. A condo or house (or just start paying for one, haha!) that I can call my own.

A friend once told me, as your salary increases, your "wants" become different, so your expenses also increases. Hmmm.. Are my "wants" too rich for my blood (salary)? Hmm... We'll see. Pwede pa naman ako mag call center sa gabi ah! Hahaha.. Joke joke joke!

A Prosperous New Year to everyone! God bless us all!

the 2007 wishlist

Last year, I wrote this blog about what I want to receive for the year 2006 Christmas, of course, no one would give me these, so it was sort of my goals for the year 2007. Let me recall what was on the list... Hmmm...

I CAN'T BUY NOW LIST

1) a new desktop pc or laptop - I got this in June 2007

2) the Motorola V3x 3G phone - I did not get this but I got the Sony Ericsson K8001 though..

3) a new Guess watch - I was not able to get this..

4) Personal Training Sessions - I aslo was not able to get this, come to think of it, I don't think I used up all my PT sessions yet..

5) Spa Visits - I did not get this

6) Bed Matress - I did not get this

I CAN BUY NOW LIST

1) a new sling bag (of course in black) - Papa, got me a bag as a Christmas gift

2) new pairs of shoes (of course, every woman desires these) - I bought so many of these

3) a new pair of denim jeans - I got these

4) new long or 3/4 sleeved shirts and blouses - I got these (some of them in HK)

5) Entourage, Smallville, Friends and some Korean Drama Series on DVD -- got them! i SO LOVE cOFFEE pRINCE!
6) Voice Lessons (hehehe) - This was/is obviously a joke...

Merry Christmas!

Yahoo! After 1 month, may internet na din kami! Kamusta naman talaga.. Sobrang tagal na ng walang service that I contemplated on having the service terminated. Buti na lang! Hay!

Next time na lang ako rant, for now, I will enjoy the holidays! God bless everyone! Merry christmas and a happy new year to all!

BUSY, STRESSED and HAPPY TO BE ALIVE! Thank God!

Define stress. Define Happy.

Disclaimer: This blog is a looooong entry. If you happen to get sleepy easy or want to fall asleep, this will definitely help you.

I was busy these past few months, my lack of entries says it all. It started in October, when I was helping my bestfriend with some preparations for her wedding, and I was doing “some” preparations as well. Being the maid of (dis) honor, I sort of planned a bridal shower for her. (The stress got to me, as I lost my voice for the very first time in my life.) She got married last October 28, it was very beautiful, I could not say anything went bad or wrong with the celebration. I was entertaining Bam and Elmer most of the reception that I wasn’t really able to bond with the Kolokoys. But, it was fine, I enjoyed the boys’ company anyways. I was supposed to go with Janine and Wilson to Hong Kong, it was their honeymoon, and I think I’d just be in the way (and the fact that I didn’t have the money yet) that I decided to postpone my trip and join my officemates’ trip to HK in December.

November was also a busy month, since I knew that I would be leaving on the first week of December to go to Hong Kong, I compelled myself to finish the syllabus before November ended. I had a string of Sunday make – up classes, which led to worsening the condition of my vocal cords. I went to the doctor and she recommended that I take some rest, which I could not really do because I had to, you know, teach. It was two whole weeks of “therapy”, religiously drinking the prescribed medicine, staying away from food that was not good for me while eating as many times as possible (because of reflux), and trying to control my allergies (which was contributing to the condition of my vocal cords). While trying to resolve this problem with my health, I was also busy preparing for the alumni homecoming, attending NAMA board meetings and being present in all (or at least, most) of the EEC student council activities. This was also a busy month for them as the annual search for the most good-looking guys and girls in our school was ongoing. They had pre-pageants, photo shoots, practices and the actual night which needed the guidance of an adviser. Good thing is, all of these events had minor glitches/problems, which I and the kids will eventually face (hopefully, Dean has forgotten all about it by next year!). As all of this was going on, I had no time to get excited with my trip to Hong Kong. Breaks during the month was most welcome, holidays were heaven – sent. I was praying to God for my voice, which I badly needed for work, and He never failed me.

By the first week of December, I was all set for my vacation, I prepared activities for my students during the week I was gone, and had my mobile phones on roaming just in case I needed to be spoken to. I could say I only sort of enjoyed my stay in HK because I was totally thinking about the following Saturday’s event. It was the homecoming already. Guests were not confirming their attendance. I was really crippled by the lack of officers in our organization due to the fact that MOST of them are abroad. In HK, I went to Ocean Park and Disneyland, and enjoyed the ladies’ and men’s night market. I was a kid in Disneyland, that much I can say. I am a 20-something year old child in Disneyland, jumping (literally, my companions can attest to that) with excitement at the sight of Mickey Mouse and the rest of the Disney characters, I was in tears when the parade started, as I could not believe what was happening before my eyes. A dream came true, I was fulfilling a goal, it may be small or petty, but I, not my parents, but I made it happen. I was truly proud of myself, and I was really in tears. I had fun times in Disneyland, most of them with the good – looking Chinese men who willingly took pictures with me (hahaha!) I love Hong Kong, transportation was very efficient, traffic was good, it was impossible to get lost because there were signs everywhere (maybe because I spent my time in the downtown area). It was clean and SMOKE-FREE (my kind of city, goodbye allergies!). Maybe the only thing I did not like when I was there was the language barrier, we nearly got lost because I forgot the address of our hotel and the taxi driver did not know where it was either (fortunately, I had a map in my bag!) We ate street-food (here in the Philippines it would be considered eating in a carinderia), and everytime we’d order, it would be a pain (spell nose-bleed!), and just pointed to pictures wishing we were not ordering some exotic food like frog or snake. I always ate my meals with iced milk tea, which I absolutely love! Too bad, iced milk tea is not readily available here. I had one day to myself, I did nothing but sleep and read the book I took with me. My flight back was scheduled on a Thursday night, and the shuttle I was riding from the hotel (we transferred from a city hotel to a 5-star hotel in the New Territories, which was like 1 hour away from the city) to the airport was stopped by the police. Apparently, the driver was recklessly driving and was reported by passenger from a taxi (I could not believe how efficient their police are! Seriously, I was impressed!). The police were polite enough to explain the situation to us and was apologetic by the delay, I feared that I would be late for my flight but the processing took about 15 minutes only. When I was at the airport, I had a little time and had a few hundred HK dollars left that I looked around and shopped first. Too bad, chocolates were all my money could buy. The plane ride back was horrible; I had to go to the restroom to throw up. And by the time I got home, it was already 2am. I needed to be in school before 7am. When I woke up that morning, it was already 7am. I totally missed the alarm, when I checked my mobile phone, it was on silent mode, so stupid of me. I could not take my car because it was my car’s “day off” from the city streets (read: color coding! ggrrr..), so I asked my brother to drop me off at Edsa so I can take a taxi to school. It was a start of a very tiring day! The following night was the homecoming, it was December 8 and the metro was jammed! The local government closed a major road that it caused major traffic in the city. Most of the people I invited were not able to come because of the HEAVY traffic. (Guys, if you are reading this, it’s fine, I totally understand!) We had a band that night, and they had no vocalist, so anybody who had the guts can sing with them. I’m gutsy, and tired, and totally not ashamed, so I volunteered myself to sing! Hahaha! I sang about 4 songs that night by the next morning, I was, again, totally raspy.

The following week was not different from the last few weeks, stressful! I had to finish grading papers, put all of them in order and submit the grades by Saturday which happens to be my friend’s wedding also. I thought I was not going to be able to go with them, because at around 11:30am, I was still not finished with the grades, and her wedding was at 3pm, and it was in Calamba, Laguna. I had to meet my other friends in Makati first before heading to Laguna. Unfortunately, as if I was branded with a huge birthmark on my behind, the traffic was heavy from the Nichols toll plaza to the Calamba toll plaza (the entire expressway, END TO END!) due to volume and road construction. We were late! Since we experienced traffic on the way, we figured, it would also be traffic on the way back to Manila, so we literally “ate and ran” from the wedding. Back to Makati, Janine, Wilson and I went to Forbes and visited a friend there, after a few hours, I went to Parañaque for a birthday party, I was so tired, that I fell asleep (sitting) despite the fact that it was so noisy! I arrived home at around 3am. The following day, the Kolokoys and I attended the Christening of our barkada’s daughter, the singles agreed to meet at Glorietta 4 before heading to St. Andrew’s Church in Makati, and as before, we were late! Well, not really, because we were lost, we didn’t know which part of the church we needed to go to. When everything was finished, we headed back to the mall and shopped for a while. When my feet got tired, I BEGGED my single friends to rest at Food Choices, and much to my surprise, I fell asleep again (sitting!) while waiting for our married friends. We parted ways and we were grateful that the weekend activities came to an end. We headed home and by 10pm, I was already asleep.

I’ve had a busy and stressful few months. But I am grateful, because feeling stressed meant that I had something to do that is important (at least for me!). I made friends, acquaintances and had wonderful experiences with them. I was with great company. And looking back, I had no regrets, the stress was worth it all!

My Thank Yous...

I will eventually write a longer blog, to recount the events that has happened these past few week, but for now, all I can do is thank the people who have helped me during the times that I could not do things on my own or has inspired me or encouraged me even when they do not know it.
My deepest gratitude goes to the following people: my cisco family: sir glen, sir gel, kuya don and ate nalen, fred, rowell, kristian, patrick (super!) and jas (duper).. my comlab family: sir glen, mam jenny, mam flor and sir gardo, marianne, marloun, mam edna, rencis, diana, ronald, weng, camille, and jane.. the andreans, alam nyo na kung sino kayo mga golteb, salamat sa pag papilot, pagcheck at pag bili ng food... my kolokoys family: janine, mina, kel, rose, iris, alvin, jake, charles, les, mommy eliz, jeff, shiela and myra.. the cisco tambays: reginald, wilheim, ewong and the rest of the barkada (kahit madalas nyo ako asarin! at tinuturuan nyo ako ng clean bisyo! waaah).. my vcf family: vanessa, ellen, ai, alhexe.. and to the nameless people.. taxi drivers, vendors, contacts.. Thank you all!! God bless you..
I thank the Lord for these people.. God has blessed me with kind - hearted and beautiful people.. sana palaging ganito....

My Ultimate Crush: Richard Anthony Mora Ticzon

Being the daughter of a former college (Letran) varsity basketball player, I was introduced to the game at an early age, even though I am a GIRL. My father taught me the basics, I even played a little but I never excelled (because I am not a natural athlete like my father!) And because of basketball, I met the guy of my dreams. Meet Richie Ticzon, point guard.

Yes, I will and can do anything for this guy. Its like, if I had a boyfriend or a husband even, and he asks me to marry him or just go out, I'd definitely drop everything and anything for him. Waaaahhhh...

My addiction for him is beyond words. Imagine a 14 - year old girl, screaming at the top of her lungs, seated at the opponent's section (the opponent being the well-loved and ever popular never-say-die Ginebra), cheering on one of the smallest men on the basketball floor. He was with Purefoods then, and I'd bug my father to take me to watch every game they play. Even on weekdays, I'd be absent (half - day) or hurry off to Cuneta Astrodome after school. I even bought the "yearbook" of the PBA whenever he was there. I had the keychain that had his signature on it.

But why on earth did I like him? Like I said earlier, its beyond words, its way beyond my comprehension (I feel stupid now thinking that I had this fascination for this guy). All I can remember was he was a graduate of Ateneo (making him intelligent and rich), he had a GREAT reputation when he played in the UAAP, and he was so darn cute! I liked him from the very first day I laid eyes on him (stalker - like na ba?)!

Sidenote lang....

People from my generation can probably relate to this, every person I know who followed PBA were rooting for the nation's team, Ginebra. This was a golden era of the PBA.. way before Alaska mastered the triangle offense, way before the league was dominated by Fil - Ams, way before Jaworski Sr was a senator, way before there are so many teams in the PBA. Now, I seldom watch games. I could not even say which player is with team now! hahaha... I don't think I'll be as passionate because I am so disappointed with the number of foreigners playing for the league. They could not make it in their country, so they traced their roots here, and played. Oh well, I do hope they really are Filipinos.

Never Experienced a Normal Life

Normal, adjective, definition: conforming with, adhering to, or constituting a norm, standard, pattern, level, or type; typical

Family Life
Since my childhood, I've always envied my "rich" classmates (although my siblings and I studied in a "prominent" school in Alabang, but I never considered us rich) who have parents that take them to school or had moms who were hands - on with assignments and activities and prepared snacks for school. I was practically independent when I started going to school. Of course, my yaya prepared my snacks, I rode the schoolbus to school. But I never experienced getting help with my assignments, or asking my parents to help me do my projects. I guess what I am saying is, is that the norm? Teach your children to be responsible at a young age or pamper them like crazy?

I never had the experience that my parents worked from 8 am to 5 pm. My father's work required him to work until night, my mother never really worked but she was not also a stay - at - home mom. And so I ask myself, will this be the only norm that I'll know?


(Romantic??) Relationships
I must admit, I never REALLY had a long - term relationship. The longest I had was an on - and - off long - distance 8 - year relationship (too many adjectives!). I got used to the independence and really, I never felt like I had a boyfriend in the 8 years we were (theoretically) together! I've had 3 not - so - good short-term (again, too many adjectives) relationships after that. And none of them made me feel like I had a "normal" relationship. I had one rule, respect and love me. I guess I was an ok girlfriend. If OK meant not being strict (with boys night-outs), not demanding regular "dates", no nagging, and no PDA. I was more attentive to my job than my man. I will not go into so much detail because the sad sob stories of my pathetic and pitiful lovelife will bring most people to tears. If that was normal, then I was very normal. Well, is it? Or my principles and views are a little twisted?

Friends
This aspect of my life I can most definitely say is the most normal of all. I see it everywhere, I see it on TV, hear it from other people, or read about it. I have a normal set of friends and have a normal relationship with them. And I have so many of them (blame it on the job)! And I love all of them!

At least I can claim that something about my life is normal. So maybe I am living a normal life after all! (",)

Mag - Ragnarok na! (Valkyrie Server)

I didn't understand what's the fuss all about when my students and some of my friends got hooked on this particular RPG. Now I know, the reason is inexplicable. You just feel something inside you that makes you want to play. I for one has denied that I am an addict, I said I am just MASIPAG (hahaha!). I started playing last Friday, and it has got me hooked all weekend. I am still a newbie, I still don't understand some of the things here, but it's really really fun. And its free! (Pardon the cliche but: "The best things in life are FREE!")

Inaantok Pa Ako.. Random Rants!

Kamusta naman, inaantok pa ako. Mag iisang buwan na akong di nakakpag-gym. Medyo muntik nang di magkasya mga damit ko. Wala pa din akong boses at super gusto ko na makanta ulit. Nag-starbucks na naman kami ulit kagabi, salamat sa mga friends ko at malapit ko na mapuno ang card. Seven stickers to go! Kahit araw arawin ko na lang na mag - toffee nut latte o kaya peppermint chuva, matatapos ko na ito before December. At maibibigay ko na ang planner sa Papa (father) ko. Masaya ako kasi 2 visits pa lang, naka 17 stickers na ako. YeY!

Back to why I am still sleepy. Since I had one short cup of toffe nut latte, when I got home, I still was not sleepy. I tried watching an AXN show on TV and closed my eyes, but I still could not sleep. So, I did watch the show, it wasn't any good so I switched channels, and damn, nothing was good on TV. I hated it. I walked around the house, trying to find something to do. Unfortunately, even the dogs were too tired to play with me. I drank 2 glasses of water, turned off the TV, and stared at the glowing stars glued to the ceiling of my room. After a few minutes, nakatulog din ako (yung glowing stars lang pala ang kailangan ko) at nagising ng 5am. So roughly, mga 3 hours lang tulog ko. Kaasar na toffee nut latte yan. Grrrr...

James 1:12 Getting Through Rough Times..

Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that GOD has promised to those who love him. - James 1:12

I am not really on a rough patch this time, but I just want to share this passage to all those who are. Just be strong and persevere, because God's favor is always given to us, even if we are having problems in life.

Starbucks Season

Starting this November, the Starbucks - collect - stickers - and - exchange - for - planner thingamajig began. So, to help out our friend who is collecting the stickers, we went to Starbucks Intramuros to fill her card with 10 stickers. Buti na lang libre. Nanlibre si Wilheim at di ko talaga alam kung bakit. I'm still trying to figure out why. Sabi nya, basta lang. Wala lang. Napakabait at galang nitong batang ito. Nakakaaliw talaga siya.

We arrived at Starbucks Intramuros at around 10pm, we played a few hours of DOTA as usual. Almost 1k ang aming bill at talagang nahihiya ako sa kanya. Masaya naman, kwentong wala naman talagang patutunguhan pero masaya, kasi relax kaming lahat. Kahit mapuyat, ok lang. Kasi di stressed out ang usapan namin. Inabot din kami ng past 11pm. Coffee, tea and a lot of stories. I wanted to drink my favorite caffeinated drink but I can't, because my doctor said so.
And as usual, nagtrip na naman ako using my se k800i. Frustrated photographer ako, so here's a few of my camera phone photgraphy:

ang starbucks tea (mine) and coffee (wilheim's)

cups of coffee, tea and water

from left to right: maruth, wilheim, jackson

ang ultimate trip ko for the night.. napagtripan ko ang mga singkit na mata ng mga kasama ko. d naman ako singkit pero sabi, maliit daw ang mata ko, lalo na kapag nakasmile. kaya ayan, small, smaller, smallest eyes.. hahaha!

To All Single Males and Females Out There

I received this article via email. It may be old already but I thought of just sharing it with the readers of this blog. This is an article about being single and the reasons of being single still. I found the article funny, at the same time true. Read on :

Top 10 reasons why single pa ang mga tao...



10. Perfectionist/Mapili

Yes, isang taong perpeksiyonista. Yung tipong dapat ganito ang magiging kapartner ko. Pag may nakilala, nakita lang na pangit ang kuko o may dumi lang, turn-off na agad. O kaya ang daming ayaw. Ayaw sa mabait boring daw, gusto bad boy/pilya pero kapag pinaiyak ka tatanungin ka bakit ang sama mo bakit mo nagawa yun! Adik ka ba?! Ayaw sa cute, ayaw din naman sa panget. meron dyan gusto ka ayaw mo naman.. ung gusto mo halos magtambling ka perodeadma parin yang stunts mO sa kanya! Pasaway ka rin e! Ano ba talaga kuya?

9. Busy Busyhan

Opo, eto yung ang mundo e gumagalaw lang sa libro at ballpen kungestudyante ka o kaya naman sa computer at files kung office staff ka. YunG tipong aalis ng bahay ng alas 6 o alas 7 ng umaga at uuwi ng bahay ng 6 hanggang alas 8 ng gabi [baligtad naman para sa mga nag tratrabaho sa call center]. Sabay tulog na. Kapag sabado masaya na sila sa tv, sa pagkain na niluluto ni mama at sa linggo naman sisimba at maghahanda na ng kelangan para sa lunes hanggang byernes. Pssssst... ka muna and pause for awhile...

8. Friendship Theory

Ano naman ito? Eto yung ang buhay ay kay bestfriend o kaya kay special friend na hindi masasabi sabi sa friendship nya sa loob ng kanilang ahabang panahon na pagsasama dahil baka daw maapektuhan ang akikipagkaibigan at iwasan sya. Yung tipong pag may kasama si friendship Pa iba, nagseselos na wala naman sa lugar, pero syempre wag pahalata, kunyari happy sya for friendship. ABA! Oi lakasan mo ang loob at baka mamaya forever mong pagsisihan yan kaw rin.

7. Born-to-be-one (Authestic)

Eto yung nasa palad na ang pagiging single daw... Walang reason... Basta lang nabuhay sya sa mundo na mag-isa at feeling nya mamatay sya sa mundo ng mag-isa. Kesyo magmamadre o magpapari na lang. Asa kang tatanggapin ka pa noh!

6. Happy-go-lucky

Eto yung taong walang alam kundi kasiyahan at trippings. Kahit sino nalang basta no string attach. For fun lang daw... Walang halong seryosohan. ABA hoy! yang init ng katawan mo e ikiskis mo nalang sa pader. Makakahanap ka rin ng katapat mo!!!

5. Wrong Place

May nakaranas na ba nito? Yung pakiramdam mo nasa ibang mundo ka. Yung ang nakakaharap mo e yung mga hindi mo gusto, yung mga hindi mo hinahanap. Alam mo yun? Halimbawa nasa ibang bansa ka, pero ang hinahanap mo e yung amoy ng nasa sariling bayan mo. O kaya naman e nasa sarili mong bayan ka, nasa normal na lipunan, pero ikaw ang abnormal at hindi mo kayang sabihin na abnormal din ang hanap mo kung ayaw mong ibitin ka nila ng patiwarik.

4. Wrong Time

Eto yung mga tao na sinasabi na, "hindi pa ako ready e bata pa kasi ako" o kaya naman "hindi pa ako handa sa panahong ito, wala pa ako kayang ipagmalaki." Yes meron pong ganyan. Yung feeling nila may tamang panahon para sa love. Awwwwwww. Aba kelan yun? Pag uugod ugod ka na at yung time mo e bitin na? O baka naman pag pang out of time ka na? Oist, sugod lang ng sugod...

3. Si parents kasi...

Yes, factor din ang komyunidad na ginagalawan mo. Una, ayaw pa ni mader o pader na magkaron ka kahit 22 anyos ka na at kelangan umabot ka muna raw ng 40 bago magkaroon ng gf/bf. O kaya naman ikaw mismo! Takot sa sasabihin ni parents at ni kapitbahay na tsismosa sa magiging kasama mo. Aba ikaw na nga ba ang sabihan na "Alam mo hindi kayo bagay. langit at lupa kayo." Sus! Payo ko sayo, Pakialam nila diba? Palibhasa inggit!

2. Traumatic Experience

Eto kalimitan ang reason ng marami. "Ayaw ko na!!! takot na ako mangyari pa ang nangyari dati!" O diba ang drama ng layp? Yes, tama ka. Eto yung dahil sa past relationship mo, e until na ayaw mo ng magkaroon at sinumpa mo na ata ang magmahal. Dahil sa pinagpalit ka sa mas pangit, o kaya naman iniwan ka ng walang word na "bye-bye", o dahil binugbog ka!, ano pa ba? Madami yan... wag na nating isa isahin at baka tumulo si tears...heheh Gayunpaman, eto lang masasabi ko mga hija at hijo. Ibat iba ang lasa ng pag-ibig. May mapait, may mapakla, may matamis at may maasim. Aba mapalad ka at natikman mo ang ibat ibang lasa nito. Kaya ikaw, Do not be afraid to fall in loveagain... malay mo sweetiness na ang malasahan mo next time. E di panalo ka sa lotto. Yan ang nagpapalakas sayo... Yang ang bumubuhay sayo, ang pag-ibig. tsk! drama!

1. EX to the nth power

Oi aminin!!! LOVE parin si Ex kahit 1 - 2 yrs na ang nakakalipas...May ganito naman. Yung tipong ilang taon ang nakakalipas, hindi parin makalimutan si ex. Yung pinagsamahan, yung tawanan, yung iyakan, at lahat ng nangyari sa inyo nung kayo pa. Malungkot man at sa kung anumang kadahilanan, maganda man o masama ito, kelangan nyong magpaalam sa isa't isa. YES, after a year sasabihin natin, im over him/her na, pero pag-usapan natin ang love at ang nangyari sa ating relastionship from the past, TADANNNNNNNNNNNNN, eto na, sya agad ang naalala mo. At habang nagkukwento ka, ouch may kirot, o kaya may ngiti at may bumabagabag sa ating kalooban.... Ano kaya yun? AMININ mo na kasi.... MAHAL mo pa si EX.... Isa lang ang masasabi ko, well mahirap sya kalimutan alam ko yan... pero open your heart and makipagdate ka, lumabas ka, at try to entertain someone. Wag mo ikumpara si ex sa iba. At give urself KITKAT, take a break..

super hair and make up

Grabe! galing ng make up artist ni Janine, super natuwa talaga ako. Di ako mukhang multo sa kapal ng make up! I love it!

This was taken before the wedding. Nasa CR ako nito, at mukha akong kinuryenteng pusa...

Eto, nasa bahay na ako, pero di pa din nabura ang make - up. Nagpalit na ako ng pambahay, at nagpicture picture muna bago maghilamos, ganun pa man, ang hirap pa din tanggalin ng make up!

Boses Ko, Where Did You Go?

It has been more than a week now, and my voice is still missing in action. I have not heard my natural voice for more than a week now. I blamed all the stress and the sleepless nights for losing my voice. But now, it has become worse, maybe because of the cough. I was so stupid to leave my umbrella at home, I was brave enough to walk in light drizzle, at the end of the day, I was sneezing all over, I thought it was the allergies, but it was not.

I miss you my voice. When are you coming back? I need you badly. Please come back. I promise to drink more than 8 glasses of water in a day. I promise not to drink cold water when I finish my consecutive lectures. I promise to rest at once I feel tired. I promise not to overuse you during the times when I don't really need to talk. WaaaH! Please come back.

Drama ba?

New Hair Color

It's been a long time since I colored my hair, in fact, the ends of my hair were of the shade of blonde due to the hair dye. If not for Janine's wedding on Sunday, I'd still postpone coloring my hair until Christmas. I didn't change the color much, its still in the shade of brown and red, sort of chestnut brown. I immediately took a picture to see if it was a little different...

Hmmmm.. may pinag - iba ba?

Yehey! walang pinag - iba!

A Not - So Traditional Bridal Shower

Months of preparation has finally paid off. Janine's friends from her work made it to the party, Janine's high school friends were also there, and of course, Mina and Eliza were also there. Too bad, some people whom I expected to be there did not make it because of unavoidable circumstances. But just the same, we all had a blast!

Three Destinations, One Night

Destination One: a hotel in Makati..

We had the traditional shower party in the hotel, had a few traditional games, we taught Janine a few traditional things (wink! wink!). I hosted the games (since the games were my not-so-brilliant idea). My voice was really raspy (still is!) from all the stress and sleepless nights (I actually think I sounded very manly but very sexy!). It was nice of Janine to be so "game" (read: not so conservative) with what we asked her to do. The cake was absolutely delicious and so was the food!

Destination Two: The Unspeakable Destination

I can not talk about this destination but we had a great laugh! I was able to experience a few things that I thought I would never have the opportunity to do. It was weird but it was very exciting, really, really exciting!

Destination Three: Off the Grill, Timog, Quezon City

We hurried off to OTG to catch Janine's favorite band (aside from Side A of course!), 7th Soul. We caught the last set but too bad, they were only able to sing 3 songs, the set was full of request for jammers. I think the band liked it a little because they all sounded under the weather.

Back to the Hotel...

After watching 7th Soul, we took Eliza home to his wonderful husband (thank you Jeff for understanding!), and Benjie Girl to her home in Manila, we headed back to the hotel. We ate left over cake, left over food and watched the DVD that was a gift for Janine. We (or I) slept at around 5am. Janine woke up early, around 6:30am because she has to go to this interview. I left the hotel at around 10 am. Mina was left all alone because she's waiting for her loving boyfriend.

I was tired but very happy. My heartfelt thanks to Janine's friends from work, her high school friends, Mina and Mommy Eliza. This would have not been successful if not for you.. (tear!) Thanks a lot and God bless you! (",)

Not Going to Hong Kong

I really feel bad about not going to Hong Kong this November. I have prepared for this trip financially and emotionally. It's really too bad that I suddenly had to use the money I saved up for this trip. Too bad that I have to postpone this trip, a trip that I have been excited about these past few months. Anyway, I just hope my "back up" plan would work and I'd still be able to go by the end of the year. I will be praying for that.

Patience

THIS IS MY PRAYER WHEN MY PATIENCE IS BEING TESTED:
God, grant me the Serenity to accept the people I cannot change, the Courage to change the one I can, and the Wisdom to know it's ME.

Super tinetest talaga ang patience ko, nalulungkot nga ako kasi I know that it is not me. Super patient talaga ako, LALO NA SA MGA FRIENDS KO, many can attest to that. Yung normal na tao ay maghuhurumintado na sa asar at galit, ako, I'll take it as a joke pa. Ganun ako kapatient sa mga KAIBIGAN ko. Pero ngayon, feeling ko, umaabot na ako sa limit ko. I just don't think a friend should try to test another friend's patience, that's so "un-friend-like". Nakakafrustrate lang kasi sinusubukan niya talaga ang patience ko. Eh kung ako kaya ang gumanun sa kanya, subukan ko kaya ang patience nya? Ano kaya ang mafi-feel niya? May attitude problem nga lang siguro siya, ginagawa ko talaga ang lahat para intindihin siya. Pero sa sobrang dami ng ginagawa at iniisip ko ngayon, masama ba na hilingin na huwag naman niya subukin ang pasensya ko? Na huwag muna siya umarte gaya ng inaarte niya ngayon? Hindi ko hinihingi na magbago siya. Pero huwag muna niya ako subukan ngayon. Dahil naiinis na talaga ako, at mapupuno na talaga ako.

Confessions of an Addict - KDrama Addict!

Hi! I'm Maruth, and I am an addict. Super addict to Korean Dramas. My addiction is so bad. I really hate it. I am currently watching Coffee Prince, and I am on the 14th episode, where all the episodes need to be downloaded to my laptop. I was (still am) patient with all the downloads! I slept 15 hours in the last 72 hours because of this addiction. I need to rest from watching these dramas, because I have so much to accomplish this month. I needed to get it out of my chest. I AM AN ADDICT. (",)

Second Place! Mapua Cisco Skills Competition..

YAHOO! Some people maybe disappointed with second place, oh no, but not me, I am totally happy! Well, I guess my dear contestants are disappointed with themselves, but to me, its perfectly fine. The week's hardwork paid off. Two of my contestants took second and third places in the written exam. My kids also got a grade of 53 of 59 in the hands-on skills exam. I am not afraid (for my team) of losing, especially if my team was losing to the best of their batch, number 1 of their batch actually. The champion team was only ahead by 2%, they just forgot one item, or else they would have received a grade of 100% in the skills. I am more afraid of hearing from my students that some items on the exam were not taught to them (obviously by me) in Cisco 2. If my team and other teams are able to read this, kids, I am not disappointed. I just hope you also are not disappointed in me. I am happy with the results, I am more happy because you learned something from me and you learned from this experience. I just hope that you realize that you have it in you. You should know within yourselves that you are good, you are good enough and no one can tell you otherwise. You just have to believe! God bless you! And I am so proud of all of you! (",)

Change Venue: 2007 MITECCEAA Homecoming

We had to change the venue because of some unforeseen circumstances (GREED to be exact, greediness of the owners of the tasteless bar that is Bailamor). I hope everyone could still make it to the homecoming!

I will be posting updates as to the venue of this year's homecoming...

My name is spelled this way: Emma-Ruth

What's in a name? My name actually is a combination of my mother's and father's name. My mother's name is Emma and my father's name is Rey. During my mother's pregnancy, ultrasound was very expensive and my parents could not afford the service. So, they didn't know my gender until I was crying my lungs out at the Medical Center of Manila. The name they prepared for me was Christopher Rey (which is my younger brother's name) and when they found out that I was a girl, they immediately had to think of a girl's name. (I think my parents were not so creative so I ended up with this name.) And my name is spelled differently, there's a hyphen in between the two names. Although my birth certificate did not include the hyphen, my baptismal certificate did. I decided to drop the hyphen when I reached college because I had to write that straight little line in all my drawing plates and reports in my Engineering Drawing courses and Laboratories. It was such a laborious task because all our reports were written in engineering lettering. So instead of writing that hyphen, I opted to use a space instead. HEHEHE!

I was resting from all the checking I've been doing and I stumbled upon this interesting site. Its a site about Kabalarian Philosophy (I think the same philosophy that Madonna is known for) and the site gives an "analysis" of what a name means. I did it for fun and here are the results:

• Although the name Emma-Ruth creates idealism and the urge to help others, we emphasize that it causes an emotional intensity that is hard to control.
  
• This name, when combined with the last name, can frustrate happiness, contentment, and happiness, as well as cause health weaknesses in the nervous system.

• The name of Emma-Ruth makes you very idealistic, sensitive, and inspirational.
  
• If these qualities are not understood and properly directed through music, art, or other creative expression, you could become jealous and possessive of those close to you.
  
• Your feelings are so strong that you are inclined to build your life around certain individuals and become wrapped up in personal love rather than seeking into the deeper truths of life; thus you could suffer losses in your affections and shattered ideals.
  
• You are generous and people are drawn to you because of your friendly and sympathetic nature.

To those who know me, are all of these true? (",)

This Girl's Shallow Happiness

My pimples suddenly cleared up! Thank God! I've been feeling soooooo ugly these past few days because the little pimples (I call them pimplets) "sprouting" all over my face! Even under a mole! I hated it, and I wanted to visit the dermatologist. But after a few days after I got my period, it cleared up. It was just hormones! Now, no more pimples! (or at least until next month's hormones are released again!) Hahaha!

Am I shallow or what?! so what! hahaha! (",)

MiNSaN uLiT

Minsan, masarap umiyak. Para lang ilabas lahat ng saloobin at hinanakit sa mundo. Minsan, masarap tumahimik. Para mag isip at gawaan ng paraan ang mga bumabagabag sa utak. Minsan, masarap tumawa. Minsan, mahirap tumawa. Minsan, madali umiyak. Minsan, mahirap pigilin ang luha.

Sana mangyari yung minsan na wala akong isipin, wala akong maramdaman, wala munang babagabag. Kailan kaya mangyayari ang minsan na 'yun?

In Pain!

Nothing's new, I am sick again. During the peak of workload, my body just could not take the pressure. This time, its my voice that is suffering. I have this sharp pain in my throat and I am actually scared because in my profession, I can not lose my voice. I DO NOT WANT TO LOSE MY VOICE. I could not talk as loud as I used to. I could not talk for long periods of time. The "salabat" could not help me anymore. My colleagues advised me to rest, sleep for long hours. But I am rested, I sleep enough, almost 7 hours in fact. I really need to see a doctor. I just hope I could fit it in my busy schedule. I do hope and pray that it is not as bad as I think it is.

Graduation Day!

My batch 2003 students graduated today. Finally marking the end of an era. The end of their wonderful college days and the beginning of the exciting "career" days. Which got me to thinking, I've been teaching for more than six years now, which means that when these "kids" were in their first year of college, I was already with the Institute (?? mental institution?? hehehe..)

I've had wonderful experiences with these kids. Little did they know that I learned from them as much as they learned from me (I do hope so that they learned something from me). I wish them well. I pray that they lead successful careers and lives, be "assets" of the country, and serve the Lord while doing all these. Congratulations Graduates! I will miss you all! (",)

My Current Life Theme Song: Way Back Into Love

The song playing when my page is viewed is Way Back Into Love. I even uploaded a video by Richard Poon singing the same song. Click here to view. I'll upload 7th Soul's version once I capture the complete song (I have a snippet of it pa lang eh)

This song is such an inspiration. Here's the lyrics. And you'll understand why it is so.

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past
I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but i just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

Oh oh oh

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

Oh oh oh

UPDATE! 6 - Day Holiday! (sana lang student pa ako!)

SIX - DAY HOLIDAY.. This is what it feels like to be working..

Since Wednesday, it has been raining cats and dogs in NCR. Of course, classes were cancelled and I would be very happy if not for the 2 - day seminar we had to attend in school. The kids are so lucky! If the government would announce that classes tomorrow will also be suspended, it would be a six - day holiday for them! Ggrrrr....

I'm still stuck here in the office, I could not leave yet because my car is still banned from the roads of Manila because of the Vehicle Reduction Scheme to control traffic in the city. I'd still have to wait for 7pm!

UPDATE: Friends from Singapore..

My friends came home from Singapore, one to celebrate his birthday, the other to make wedding arrangements. Some sort of reunion, although its not really like they left the country because we are in constant communication. Thanks to the internet generation! We went out last Saturday and last night for a small get - together.

superbowl dinner with james, sir leo, mam flor and mike

superbowl dinner and the rest of us (tayo tayo ang hair ko)

superbowl dinner with sir glen, marianne, marloun and james

sir glen and me at aruba

mike at aruba

In Love....... With Red and Pink Tulips

I really like tulips, but I used to like yellow tulips. But something changed, seeing a bunch of red and pink tulips really brighten my day! I just love looking at them! May ganito ba sa Pilipinas?

So nice to stare at them... Pink tulips..

Red Tulips

More tulips! Tulips everywhere!

To whom much is given, much is required

My title sounds like a line from the movie Spiderman (Great power comes with great responsibility), but it actually is a line from the Bible. I was so inspired with Father Boyd's sermon, that I included Today's Gospel in this blog.

We should not live in fear to show our love for Christ. I asked myself today, have I asked Jesus to come into my life, to live in me, to stay with me? Jesus is always with us, the question is, have I asked Him to stay? "Parang manliligaw na buntot ng buntot pero di naman pinapansin" as Father Boyd put it. Nakakatwa isipin, pero totoo. Ikaw, tinanong mo na ba sa sarili mo 'yan? "The Son of man will come at an unexpected hour", ikaw, handa ka na ba kapag dumating na ang oras na 'yon? It is never too late to accept Him in our lives. Gawin na natin ngayon, hangga't may oras pa. Habang kaya pa natin. Napaghahandaan nga natin ang mga exams, parties, wedding, gimik, di ba? Let us accept Christ in our lives, let receive God's grace, and live without fear because He is with us. (",)

Here's today's Gospel, from the Book of Luke, Chapter 12, verses 32 to 48:

32	"Fear not, little flock, for it is your Father's good pleasure to give you the kingdom.
33	Sell your possessions, and give alms; provide yourselves with purses that do not grow old, with a treasure in the heavens that does not fail, where no thief approaches and no moth destroys.
34	For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also.
35	"Let your loins be girded and your lamps burning,
36	and be like men who are waiting for their master to come home from the marriage feast, so that they may open to him at once when he comes and knocks.
37	Blessed are those servants whom the master finds awake when he comes; truly, I say to you, he will gird himself and have them sit at table, and he will come and serve them.
38	If he comes in the second watch, or in the third, and finds them so, blessed are those servants!
39	But know this, that if the householder had known at what hour the thief was coming, he would not have left his house to be broken into.
40	You also must be ready; for the Son of man is coming at an unexpected hour."
41	Peter said, "Lord, are you telling this parable for us or for all?"
42	And the Lord said, "Who then is the faithful and wise steward, whom his master will set over his household, to give them their portion of food at the proper time?
43	Blessed is that servant whom his master when he comes will find so doing.
44	Truly, I say to you, he will set him over all his possessions.
45	But if that servant says to himself, `My master is delayed in coming,' and begins to beat the menservants and the maidservants, and to eat and drink and get drunk,
46	the master of that servant will come on a day when he does not expect him and at an hour he does not know, and will punish him, and put him with the unfaithful.
47	And that servant who knew his master's will, but did not make ready or act according to his will, shall receive a severe beating.
48	But he who did not know, and did what deserved a beating, shall receive a light beating. Every one to whom much is given, of him will much be required; and of him to whom men commit much they will demand the more.

Saturday Night Out

Going out is one of my guilty pleasures, I go out at least once a week, at any day of the week. It's sometimes tiring, but really, it's the highlight of my week, it's something to look forward to (aside from going to Church of course). My gimik buddies are normally my bestfriend Janine, or my officemates who have transformed into bowling addicts. Last Saturday, I went out with my college buddies, the F4, or Friday Four. We used to go out every Friday, to rant about the people in our lives (AHEM), have dinner at one of our favorite pizzarias (Don Hen) and just waste the night away.

We had dinner at Super Bowl of China at Glorietta 4, whose service really sucks by the way, and headed off to Tropezz to watch 7th soul. Dennis (who isn't in the picture) had to leave early because he has yet to pack his things because he left yesterday for the US. As usual, our conversations had similar points: work and gadgets. We are gadget freaks but not really geeks. Thank God no more "inquiries" about my now "non-existent" lovelife, I had nothing to share anyway, hehehe! I miss these guys.. I hope we'll be able to go out again like this. Just us 4. Just like before. (",)

Prayer of the Faithful..

Prayer of the Faithful..

EN'07 Rocks.. To the ends of the earth..

Parang rock concert.. Di mo aakalain na ganyan kadami ang tumanggap kay Kristo sa buhay nila! Madami pa ang di nakapunta... Nakakaoverwhelm talaga!

Passages of Encouragement

If you are feeling weary, down or just having a "blah" day, here are words of encourangement taken from the Bible:

Isaiah 40:28-31: "Have you not known? Have you not heard? The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He does not faint or grow weary; his understanding is unsearchable. He gives power to the faint, and to him who has no might he increases strength. Even youths shall faint and be weary, and young men shall fall exhausted; but they who wait for the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint."

I am feeling a little down today, so I guess instead of wallowing in my "dark clouds", I looked for things that might make feel a little "light". I hope these words also encourage you, if you are having a bad day. (",)

To My Prayer Network: Maraming Salamat!!! Pasado Ako!!!

Hay Thank you God!!! Pasado ako sa BCMSN exam ko! Grabe, akala ko talaga I will not pass the exam, I was on the verge of crying, my palms were sweating kahit super lamig sa exam room, ang dami kasi lumabas sa hindi ko inaral. Buti na lang, God is so good to me, I asked for guidance, ibinigay Niya sakin yun! I got 987 of 1000! Thank you sa inyong lahat! Alam ko all of you prayed for me.. Thank you thank you!!

To God be the glory!!!

Request for Prayers

Sa lahat ng mga friends ko na makakabasa nito.. Wala lang.. I need your help.. Pag pray nyo lang po ako na sana maging successful po yung gagawin ko bukas. Yun lang po.. Thank you thank you!!!

"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent." - Eleanor Roosevelt

Early today, I received this text message from this person whom I was confiding in about something that was bothering me. His reply was, "Mataas kc masyado gus2 m...". It was like a slap in the face, that he was telling me the brutal truth. Or was it the truth? Was he telling me that I could not achieve something that I want? I was always told to dream big, aim high, aim for the sky, if in case I fail, I would have fallen on the roof and not on the ground. I would achieve better things if I aim for greater things.

I didn't know what to say to him. I was confused if he was trying to hurt me or was he being a friend because he was telling me the truth. But what he said hurt me. Hurt me a lot. He made me feel little. Inferior. Because I let him do that to me.

I don't want to feel that way again. Today, I made a decision, to stop wallowing in self - pity. Instead of feeling hurt, I will take it as a challenge. Something to push me more to achieve my goal. My Savior will carry me through this rough patch. I just know He will. (",)

Last night, something hit me, it was so simple and yet so true. And I so needed it. What am I talking about?

Last night, my bestfriend Janine and I went out to see our friend perform in Makati. He was performing with other artists and it was a very fun night. One of the artists was Acel Bisa (from Moonstar88), and she sang this song, Silver Lining, she explained it was like a glimpse of great things in the future. It just made me realize something, I need not ask God for what's in store for me, I need not ask God what, why, when and how. I know He has plans for me, great plans for me, I just need to follow the path He made for me and embrace His plans for me. I so loved the song, I decided to find the lyrics, but I got more! I found her site, and the song was uploaded in the site, it had an embeded music player and I got to listen to more of her songs. And I was able to get a link that I can post here. I hope you like this song as much as I do. (",)

You can visit her website: http://acel.eastcurrent.com for more info. But here's the lyrics of the song that I so love right now.

Silver Lining

Written by: Acel Bisa van Ommen
Music by: Acel Bisa van Ommen and Ronnie Ropal
Copyright 2005

I've been trying to read your mind
but i always end up puzzled and surprised
I see myself like I am blind
but you hold my hand and you lead me
coz i know i don't need to worry
i just let you be my guide

Coz i just see a silver lining
a glimpse of your promise to me
but it's not about what it is
or how or if but it's knowing the one who made it

I'd like to know what's in store
yeah it's big but i know for sure
that what i really need is you within my soul
sometimes I put you in a box
and I forget that you are God
but what really matters to you
is my heart

Coz i just see a silver lining
a glimpse of your promise to me
but it's not about what it is
or how or if but it's knowing the one who made it

it's not the promise
but the one who made it
it's you who made it happen
coz you love me

Last night, I asked my friend Richard, why he sounded different. He said it was because he will be trying to crossover to a new genre of music, standards. It was his last performance (that Janine and I will be able to watch) as an acoustic artist. It actually made me a little sad because of the songs he composed, not all of them can be 'transitioned' to standards format. He sounded so good singing his songs, he also sounded good singing standards (he sang samples for me, acapella, while I was driving), of course it will be different with a complete set of musicians to back him up. Janine and I will be watching him sing standards at Eastwood on May 16. Hhhmmm... Ano kaya ang bagong tunog niya?

Last night, I had an interesting night. It was a night full of thought. I promised myself some things, things I would do, things I would not do. I pray to God, that He give me strength to accomplish this promise. Thank you God for bringing me there last night!

Baguio - La Union Five - Day Break

Last Wednesday, the people whom I fondly call "the Cisco Crew" went to Baguio to attend an annual convention which was held in Baguio. This also coincided with the National Cisco Skills Competion for students. Our school got second place, which isn't bad, actually, it was great that they got second place. The students took home 20,000 pesos. But I think the students were quite disappointed because they did want to take home the bacon. Oh well, that's that. It's not the end of the world and for me, they will still be the champs!

Back to the Five - Day Break

I actually had a nice vacation up there in Baguio, for the first time in a few years, I got really wasted, as in totally wasted on our first night there. I did it on purpose, because I could not get that drunk here in Manila because I was always the designated driver (of course maruth, you have to drive your father's car! duh!). In my 3 nights in Baguio, 2 nights of which I got totally drunk, only one night of which I was a little "tipsy". After the 3 days in Baguio, some of us headed to La Union, a surf resort in San Juan, San Fernando. Of course, I didn't want to get dark so I stayed in the shade for most of the afternoon. I was also too lazy to remove my contact lens so I didn't go for a dip in the sea. I just played with the little waves that were reaching my ankles at the beach. We also played a little volleyball (maruth, admit it, you are not a girl because you can't play volleyball!). I did get a tan though, in one arm, because it was this arm that was exposed to the sunlight on the way to the beach. I can't do anything about it! It looks so damn funny. My arms have uneven color. As in!

One - Two - Three Pass!

Saturday night, Sebay Resort. A few of our students, officemates and boss played one - two - three pass. If our hand landed on top of the pile, we'd have to choose between Truth or Consequence. Damn, I was really bad in games! I was the biggest loser of the night. I had to do 2 truths and 2 dares. I really had to share a little secret that I have been keeping for quite sometime now. And 1 dare that involved another person that was part of the little secret I was talking about. Just looking back at what happened is making me smile a silly smile. Hahaha!

Let's Sing Songs..

I was on my way home last night, when this song played on the radio. It was a very long commute because it was so traffic in Cavite (by the way, I was not driving, I was just a passenger! What a miracle! hehehe). It stuck to my head (LSS ba ito?). Here's the lyrics, will try to find the song soon!

You Got It All
The Jets

I, I was a game he would play
He brought the clouds to my day
Then like a ray of light
You came my way one night
Just one look and I knew
You would make everything clear
Make all the clouds disappear
You're better than all the rest
Who do I love the best

Don't you know, don't you know

You got it all over him
You got me over him
Honey it's true
There's just you
You must have been heaven sent
Hearing me call you went
Out on a limb
And you're all that he's not
Just look what I got
Cause you got it all
Over him

No, don't let him worry you so
Once I met you I let go
Oh you can surely see
You're so much more to me
Just one look and I knew
You would make everything clear
Make all the clouds disappear
You're better than all the rest
Who do I love the best
Don't you know, don't you know

You got it all over him
You got me over him
Honey it's true
There's just you
You must have been heaven sent
Hearing me call you went
Out on a limb
And you're all that he's not
Just look what I got
Cause you got it all
All over him
(You got it all over him, You got me over him)
Honey it's true there's just you
You must have been heaven sent
Hearing me call you went
Out on a limb
And you're all that he's not
Just look what I got
Cause you got it all
All over him

***side comment: Ngayon ko lang narealize (April 2), kaya ko pala gusto tong song na ito, kasi meaningful pala ito sa akin ngayon.. Kaya pala.. hehehe...***

Here's another song, I've already uploaded it my playlist. Yah, it's under the emote playlist, well, I play this when I'm feeling a bit low. (ganun?)

Trying To Get The Feeling Again
Christian Bautista (Remake)

At any moment she'll be walking through that door
She won't find me behind it
cause the feeling is gone and
just won't come back anymore
I work so hard to find it

I've been up, down, trying to get the feeling again
All around, trying to get the feeling again
The one that make me shiver
Make my knees start to quiver
Every time she walks in

I've looked high, low
Everywhere I possibly can
But there's just no trying to get the feeling again
It seemed to disappear as fast as it came

read every book
look for every meditation and poem
just to bring home that old sweet sensation
but it ain't no used to me, trying to get the feeling again

Where did it run to? I thought I'd done all that I could
To keep the love burning
But whatever I've done, I just haven't done it too good
Cause all that's left is yearning

I've been up, down, trying to get the feeling again
Like a bloodhound searching for a long lost friend
could you help me rediscover
the way to re be her lover once again

read every book
look for every meditation and poem
just to bring home that old sweet sensation
But it ain't no used to me, to try and get that feeling
I want to get that feeling again

I've been up, down, trying to get the feeling again
I've been up, down, trying to get the feeling again
I've been up, down, trying to get the feeling again
trying to get the feeling again

My First Official Entry

I'm finally using multiply account for my blogs.  Although I'll still use my blogspot account, I think I'll also begin writing here. 

let me begin..

with work!

     Today, I was supposed to be in school, checking and grading papers as always especially at this time of the term.  It's the end of the term, and I think, I am almost done with what I am supposed to do.  I have to say, this term is not one of my best terms, I was completely lazy, I paid very little attention to my courses and taught only the basics.  Well, not really, I covered the whole syllabus and actually added a little more, but not as much as I expected.

     Like I said, I stayed home today to rest, watched TV, and a Korean movie, as I am very excited to go on a vacation!

with friends...

     My friends are actually starting to leave the country.  Well, it started with my guy-bestfriend who left a few years ago to try his luck in Saudi and then went on to Singapore.  He does come home at least once a year but it has never been the same when he's here hearing me out, making his ears bleed with all my yappings..

     Leslie Boy is one of my friends whom I can always count on if I do not want to go out alone.  He's always game to watch movies, hang out or play at the nearest arcade (TIMEZONE!!).  He's even accompanied us girls in The Spa (over at Jupiter)!  He's now in the US, and we can really feel his absence..

     Next to leave is my best friend since high school.  We practically grew up together.  We've been bestfriends for more than half of our lives.  We shared so much together.  Even in misfortunes in our lovelives, we have so much in common.  She's really my soulmate.  She's in UK right now, and we only get to share stories via email or chat...

     James, a college friend, will also leave for Singapore next week.  On Wednesday, we might go out to give a "despedida" party for him.  I do hope he'll do great there!

     My bestfriend Mina is also bound to leave the country, she'll be leaving for Japan by the end of March.  She will be coming home though to attend our friends' wedding in October, but preparing for it would not be the same without her..

     These stories are starting to fill my eyes with tears..

"Strong Enough?"

A title of a song. Sung by Sheryl Crow. It just gives so much meaning to what I feel right now. I don't know, maybe its just all in my head. It feels like I'm floating, I'm lightheaded, but not in love as others may think.

I've been on a rollercoaster ride these past few weeks, spreading myself too thin in all the things I want to do, but the consolation is, I really am enjoying. I am having the time of my life, eventhough I am not with anybody.

**********Valentine's Day**********

My bestfriends gave this bouquet last Valentine's Day, it's very seldom that I receive flowers but I really love receiving them. Nice noh?

**********Cisco Skills Competition**********

Last Friday, the Mapua Team (School of ECE) won the first place in the NCR Cluster competition held at AMA Makati. They will be competing together with 4 others schools coming from different clusters throughout the Philippines. We are gunning for the First Place. I just hope they prepare enough for this competition. Here are my boys!

Mam from C3P, Sir G, Master Ninoy, Baby Jack, Andre Kulit, Silent Mike

and the rest of the C3P officers

Last night, we celebrated the victory at Syndel (videoke bar in Malate). Although the place was crawling with gay men, we had a blast because everybody participated in the singing (some of US were not willing to let go of the mic, hehehe!). I actually got wasted last night and woke up really early this morning. Pictures to be uploaded soon!

What I Have Learned in 2006

(A Collection of Clichés and What-not)

Here are some of the things I learned last year, some of them, I heard from a movie, a TV drama, a book I read or just conversing with people.

• More thought should be put into ending a relationship than beginning a new one.
• Not all problems have solutions. Sometimes we just have to let the problem solve itself. I guess it will. Eventually.
• Good friends can be counted using only one hand. Friends will come and go.
• There's such a thing as quarter-life crisis. It's the reason of "insanity" of some people my age.
• No man is an island. We will always have the urge to find somebody. Anybody.
• You can not have everything. At least you are not supposed to have everything.
• Love does not conquer all. Love for oneself does.
• The grass is greener on the other side of the fence. Sometimes, greener is not always better. It is just greener.
• Loving someone would mean giving that person the power to hurt you. But if he truly loves you, he would be very careful not to hurt you.
• The person who broke my heart does not have the right to dictate how I mend it. There are things that that person should not be able to control.
• When you are born, you are actually starting to die.

Will add some more as soon as I remember them all. (",)